The Taste of Ink

Pride

2011-04-17T15:25:00.000-07:00

Pride can't be described.
Well, it might have a definition in the dictionary and 10 different ways of defining it in a thesaurus, and perhaps scholars and psychologists and even movie directors have focused on it, making it the subject of their thesis', study, movies etc.
All I know for sure though, is that pride is existent in all of us- some in large amounts, and in some so little it's barely recognizable.

This pride, no matter how little or small, can do one of two things: That is, prevent you from doing something stupid or prevent you from doing something totally required.

Truth is, today more people are believe in their pride or take notice of it, than their conscience, which has caused relationships betweens humans to deteriorate and eventually perish.
Talking to your friend after a fight is mandatory no matter whose fault it is (and if you think it's not, you probably don't have a lot of friends, or a lot of dumb ones) (I have neither), but your pride won't let you do that.

It probably has something to do with stooping too low or dignity... but we forget, in our state of extreme pride (I wish there was another word to use here) (Note: Must look in thesaurus), that when it comes to friendship, it really doesn't have to do with pride.

Pride exists in all of us- and it is good to be proud of the things you've accomplished, things you've been through... whatever those might be.
But the second our pride becomes an integral part of attitude, where we cannot distinguish it as a separate and non-existent, and it becomes a characteristic, that's where the trouble begins.

A lot of times, I never realized this... it just become part of me and altered my behavior towards others. You suddenly find yourself too ______ to say sorry, try harder, ask for something. You couldn't fill in the word, but it would have become part of you.
It was pride.
It's not pretty and when you realize it, you won't be either.

It usually takes someone else to tell you how proud you are, because you become so unattractive to other people. But if you're lucky, you can figure it out yourself.

Rebecca Black Is The New Cool Thing To Hate

2011-03-29T16:54:00.000-07:00

When I was 13, I had some of the best days of my life.
Sure, I made some of the most stupidest decisions too- saw too many boys, didn't finish my homework on time, broke friendships, lied, got into trouble, failed an exam etc. but I was 13. The world wasn't expecting much from me.
It would suck however, if I was famous.

Because if you are famous, or want to be, it doesn't matter how old you are- 5, 10, 13... if you do not meet the audience's needs (whatsoever that might be, no matter how sadly infamous those people are), you are done for.

A prime example?
13 year old superstar in the making- Rebecca Black.

The crime she committed? Nothing.
Her mistake? Singing stupid lyrics, that weren't written by her.

So Black is a rich kid (or so I've heard) and her parent's paid for her video with this auto-tune obsessed record label, called 'Ark Music Factory'.
Nothing wrong with that, according to me, if you've got money, use it to the best of your abilities.

Anyway, so out comes Black's video 'Friday' and it's got the dumbest lyrics in the world, literally narrating the days of the weeks and in which order they proceed and something about her having difficulty in deciding where to sit and all.
And okay fine, no one's denying the absurdity in the lyrics!

But why hate on her? More so, when we know she's a 13 year old kid?
Didn't you do ANYTHING stupid when you were that age, that if it were broadcast on television or the internet, you wouldn't leave your house?

The video went viral and now she is supposedly the most 'disliked' (usage of polite word) person on YouTube.
If she kills herself, I'd like to see everyone who contributed to her death by posting irrelevant, clichéd, repetitive hate statuses about her take a stand.

It's cool to hate (I'd never) but I get it.

Someone finds a video of a kid singing dumb lyrics, tell their friends, they all might not get it but they'll still laugh along CAUSE THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE'S DOING and then post ignorant/hate statuses and comments all over the internet.
Because she's dumb, it's funny and all that jazz.

I'm honestly sick of this 'cool to hate' attitude that people have these days. Everyone just wants to be in on something, even if they don't entirely get it. Really?
And we hate on a 13 year old kid for making a bad decision?
And what's super sad is when people hate without a reason.
Ever researched upon the kid and drawn your own conclusion? If people really knew about music, you'd see how amazing she sounds minus the auto-tune shit.

Well anyway, here's my rant- Fuck you everyone who's ever hated/disliked/mocked her.
But also, thank you, for making her the most viewed on YouTube and also for making her a top selling artist on iTunes.

Awe.
so much for hating.

Big Fail.

If You Make It, You Make It. If You Don't, You Don't

2011-03-16T15:16:00.000-07:00

My friend’s a doctor. How cool is that?

I know her since pre-school and more specifically, she wants to be a cardio surgeon.
I’m actually going to know a cardio surgeon when she and I grow up...you know, more than we already have.

The roads weren’t always as smooth as they were for us, in pre-school and we had our share of differences (vast differences), but we made it through like good friends do.
Regardless, as interesting as that might seem, that is not what this blog is about. It is about just being satisfied in life and how that is so underrated.

I have a point, I promise.

You see, when you are in pre-school it’s okay to be really smart. She was the smart kid, I was the talkative one. When you hit junior high, you’re still discovering yourself- after KG, She and I parted ways and then I saw her again in Grade 4. By then it had been four good, long years and I was trying to be someone else, she hadn’t changed...and my change had confused her and kept her out in the dark.

What was I trying to be?
Well, my mentor in becoming someone else was a mean, cold-hearted girl who I believe had forever changed me for the worst, encouraging me to make fun of other people and do things I wouldn’t normally do. She was pretty and confident, that works on 8 year olds, believe me.
Anyway, as we became seniors, like most kids my age, I had come to my senses and gone back to being her childhood friend and we’ve been tight ever since.
I’d changed a lot; she had remained the same- cruelly honest, socially confused, insanely book smart.

Now she’s becoming a doctor, an amazing profession which requires not only brains but also confidence, nerves, and the strength to make the right choices and save someone’s life...
And she says her life is okay.
She could say being smart changed everything, now she's on a road to success, whilst everyone around her struggles for an identity but not my friend.
She's just okay.

That’s what this post is about.
We live in an over achieving world, I think, where people get ahead of themselves, trying to be more than what they actually can. Well, they say, you’ll never know unless you try...but what people don’t realise is that trying wears you out.

Why can’t we just be okay?
Why is being satisfied with life, so fucking underrated?
Why do we always have to be extremely happy and content, otherwise nothing?
Why can't we figure out life as we go along? Do we really need to know all the answers now?
I think the reason why people today are so competitive is because they are trying so hard, not to be the best that they are, but to prove that they are the best.

I wish there was a big sign that reads, ‘No proof required, just be the best you can be’.
No proof, no recognition.
Just plain, honest, hard working people trying to make a day at a time trying to reach where they have to reach.
Not too far ahead, where they forget where they started from or why, not too slow either...

Just okay, just satisfied.

PS- To my amazing doctor friend, I love you and thank you for not being a stuck up, over achiever in everything you do, even though you could achieve anything you wanted to in this world.

PPS- Suck it, over achievers =)

Trolololol

2011-03-10T03:14:00.000-08:00

The internet is perhaps the best place in the world today, to communicate a message effectively, to a vast number of people, at the same time.
Take this blog post for instance. I want to spread awareness about internet bullies and the damage they cause to society, so I’ll write it all out here, and then when I press send- it will automatically send itself out to the internet.
So yes, it’s a great way to inform people, speak out a loud and possess a strong voice, if you are incapable of reaching a large audience physically.

However, let’s not be naive and assume that this mode of communication is entirely effective. Because let’s face it, it’s not.
Like everything in this world, the internet does have its wide range of downfalls (Paedophiles, I am not pointing at you). The latest one in producing messages is the art of trolling.

Who are trolls/What is trolling?
I’ll state three to four website, so that I can assure you’ll some credibility:
1) A troll is someone who posts inflammatory, extraneous, or off-topic messages in an online community, such as an online discussion forum, chat room, or blog, with the primary intent of provoking other users into a desired emotional response[1] or of otherwise disrupting normal on-topic discussion – Wikipedia

2) Being a prick on the internet because you can – Urban Dictionary

3) To utter a posting on Usenet designed to attract predictable responses or flames. Derives from the phrase "trolling for newbies, which in turn comes from mainstream "trolling", a style of fishing in which one trails bait through a likely spot hoping for a bite – urban75.com

My favourite definition however of a troll, is one I found on a website called ‘Know Your Meme’. The definition is as follows:

‘A troll is someone who will state something only with the intention of stirring up controversy. Typically the statement is so absurd that only the most noobish of noobs will get offended and respond’.
It is quite sad of me to admit, but I will nonetheless, that I have in fact been the most noobish of noobs. But that is exactly why I am writing this post.

Over the past few weeks in particular, I find some of my good friends have been running around the internet, claiming to be ‘trolls’. Of course, being the ignorant little bug I am (or perhaps because I have a life apart from the internet, is another way of looking at it) I was unaware of such terminology.

My boyfriend, who is more than well-researched in his life, then, ran me through what exactly trolling was. And of course, needless to say, I found it fascinating but quite sad at the same time.
What was fascinating was that more than seldom, people were using the term entirely wrong in comparison to what they were actually doing. And well, we can all figure out the sad part about being a bully on the internet- that’s like taking part in an online beauty pageant.

Anyway, so after engaging in several, time-consuming, useless discussions/arguments with these so called ‘trolls’, I decided to surf the web and research on the topic.
Here’s a quick summary provided for you guys, and you can click on the website link here, if you're interested to know the whole story:

In the late 1980s, Internet users adopted the word “troll” to denote someone who intentionally disrupts online communities.
Professor Judith Donath explains troll employ something called a “pseudo-naïve” tactic, asking stupid questions and seeing who would rise to the bait.
As our emotional investment in the Internet has grown, the stakes for trolling — for provoking strangers online — have risen. Trolling has evolved from ironic solo skit to vicious group hunt.

So what are we going to do about that?
I, being one hell of an angry and feisty person, used to constantly reply back to these faux trolls. I wasn’t learned of the issue, and so I only found it weird that they used to refer to themselves as one. I mean, who voluntarily calls themselves a troll, unless they want to be known as one, right?
Right.

Well, had I not read up on this new internet phenomena, then I would have probably continued to 'feed the troll' as they put it, because I’m not one to keep quiet (Do I sound 50 years old? Cause I feel 50 years old).
But anyway, now I know better.

Trolls must be sad people, constantly on the internet, swapping their real faces for ‘troll/cool faces’, living their lonely lives vicariously through the internet.
Commenting on FB statuses, wall posts, forums gives them the ‘illusion of power’ as one website puts it, because ‘they are unable to distinguish between irritation and admiration; their ego grows directly in proportion to the response, regardless of the form or content of that response,’.

What’s my final conclusion on this issue?
Whether trolls or faux trolls, it is safe to ignore them.
Any comment(s) that you deem would result in a fuck load of unnecessary responses, ignore ignore ignore.

...When It Rains, On This Side Of Town It Touches Everything.

2011-02-14T14:06:00.000-08:00

Photo Credit: Some Random Tumblr User
Title: 'When It Rains'- Paramore

We Are Not Broken People

2011-02-14T13:55:00.000-08:00

Photo Credit: Random Tumblr User

Elevator Awkwardness

2011-01-09T13:06:00.000-08:00

Why are elevators such conversation killers?
I don't mean this in regards to walking into an empty lift, and continuing the conversation you were having earlier.
Wait.. Let me rephrase that:

Why are crowded elevators such conversation killers?

Sure, it could get annoying to talk to your friend in a lift filled with other people. But that barely seems it...
It's just plain awkward.

I'm not sure about the majority, but when in a crowded elevator, I not only look down to avoid looking at someone in the face/avoid looking at them looking at me, or at the elevator buttons/screen to see how fast I'm going to reach my destination... But I have this uncontrollable need to laugh.
ALL OF A SUDDEN I just really want to laugh.

This could seriously depend on the company I'm with- like a hilarious friend or someone equally 'elevator awkward'.

Anyway, I really had no point with this blog, but here's hoping I'm alone in the elevator tomorrow.

ParaNOmore

2010-12-26T10:19:00.000-08:00

I can't say for sure, but most people I do know, LOVE music.
Plugged in their ears, or blaring through the radio, it is a constant source of happiness and pleasure, getting them through the day peacefully and without getting themselves killed (or in my case, it get's me through the day without killing other people).
Regardless, music is awesome.

And most people who listen to music, according to me, have a particular band/musician or singer who they adore tremendously. And I mean 'stalker-like adore'.
Put pictures of them on laptops, cell phones, have them on every favorite list you ever made (even those not related to music), pictured themselves being in the band/a groupie/roadie...
You get the hint?

I had a band like that once, not too long ago. They were called 'Paramore'.

Okay, that might be incorrect, seeing as they do not cease to exist, that would make that statement false.
But they kind of broke up, so in some sense I am right? Even though the rest of the 3 members are in tact and keeping the name?

Two founding members of the band Paramore left very recently, and I have not been able to pick up the pieces of my life and move on yet.
It's quite disturbing to have a band, whose music got you through the days and inspired you, to break up through lame public announcements and blog entries and videos, and there's nothing you can do.

I mean I guess it would be easier, if it was one person leaving the band or the band had just called it quits, and it ceased to exist, because things were just not working out anymore.
But when you have two brothers leave a band, they founded, it's kind of confusing.
Why would you leave something you believed in? Where does that leave me and other fans?

And then as though it isn't hard enough having your favorite band break up, you start to hear shitty announcements placed forward by them, blaming one and another.
The remaining three members (Vocalist Hayley, Bassist Jeremy and Guitarist Taylor) released a post on their official site, saying: '...A couple of months ago, Josh and Zac let us know they would be leaving the band after our show in Orlando last Sunday. None of us were really shocked. For the last year it hasn't seemed as if they wanted to be around anymore. We want Josh and Zac to do something that makes them happy and if that isn't here with us, then we support them finding happiness elsewhere...'

And then they add (which according to me, was a horrible idea): '...But we never for a second thought about leaving any of this behind. We really hope that you can be encouraged by the fact that the three of us who are still here are ready to take on another chapter of our journey together. You have always been what keeps us going so why would we stop now? We want to stick by you...'

Yeah, no one cares and no, that doesn't make me feel better.

So, after you read shit like that, I felt like how any angered, betrayed die-hard fan would feel. I slammed my head against the wall, jumped off the third floor and cried till my eyes fell out... And then I realized, 'Hey! At least they're still going to make sweet music... let's just hope it's as good'.

And then I stumbled upon one of the brothers (now, ex member's) blogger, in which he stupidly describes (clearly, point by point) why he and his brother left the band.

'...Months down the road things changed and this band became all about Hayley.'

'...All the while we still questioned whether or not we were an actual band, but Hayley continued to insist we were, despite our being ignored and pushed around by the label....'
'...(we would)hit the road with Hayley’s father as our tour manager/driver of a twelve-passenger van. Her dad would constantly threaten to “pull the plug” on the whole band if we complained about anything, suggesting that we were hired guns and Hayley was the real artist,...'

Seriously, enough with this shit.
It's hard enough to deal with a band you love breaking up, but then you have to listen to two sides rant about who is right and who is wrong, and what they want to do in life.
Don't forget the clichéd, classic ending line 'We are still hoping to work out a friendly way to leave our part of Paramore intact with the remaining band members, including Hayley.'

I'm tired, and I don't know who or what to believe.
If you are going to break up, do so quietly. You don't need to make it public that everything we fans ever believed in, was a fucking joke...

Honestly, Paramore... I'm angry and you've broken my heart.
And you know what, Ignorance is YOUR new best friend.

(Blog Title Credit: Presley D'Souza)

127 Hours Was The Best 1 & A Half Hours Of My Life

2010-12-19T14:12:00.000-08:00

With the Dubai International Film Festival (December 12th - 19th, 2010) in town, I was pretty excited to watch Academy Award winning Director- Danny Boyle's latest movie, '127 Hours'.
I had heard of the movie on an Indian news channel and no they were not promoting it, but one of it's song, which obviously had something to do with an Indian composer.
Regardless, I immediately 'googled' 127 Hours and fell in love with the story.

The movie is based on the true story of a mountain climber called Aron Ralston, whose hand got trapped by a boulder, when he was mountaineering in Utah.

In order to survive, he had to amputate his lower right arm with a pocket knife, which he described as "what you'd get if you bought a $15 flashlight and got a free multi-use tool".

Imagine being trapped, alone in the Blue John Canyon (which I think has something to do with the Grand Canyon), with barely any water or food, a stupid flashlight and a digital camera and video recorder?
I'd give up about 5 minutes into the situation, my mind being unable to think under the immense pressure to survive and fear of not surviving.

Aron on the other hand, was a smart guy... did things I'd never even dream of doing, and somehow got out of there alive and with the rest of himself in tact.
(He also, to my delight and surprise, managed to click a picture of his arm once amputated, which I think is pretty neat)

He now is a public speaker (obviously) and the first person to climb all of Colorado's 53 mountains.
He still climbs mountains, including a 2008 expedition to climb Ojos del Salado and Monte Pissis in Argentina.
In 2008, he solo-climbed Denali and skiied from the 20,320' summit and in 2009, he led an expedition with his friends on the Colorado River through the Grand Canyon, and climbed Mt. Kilimanjaro in Tanzania.
He's married, and has a son (which he saw WAYY before he was born) and life's good.
...all with an amputated right arm.

Do we have any right to complain... with two, fully working arms?
I don't think so.

Two Cheers For The Blubbering Idiot

2010-12-17T03:27:00.000-08:00

So...
I just watched 'Eclipse'.

I know I'm a bit late, and when I mean 'bit', I mean 'extremely' but I really had to be in the mood for these.
Before boredom and curiosity actually got to me, together at the same time, I was previously one of 'those' people who disliked the idea of the Twilight series before really giving it an honest chance.
When I watched it, it sucked lesser than I thought it would.
I mean I try my level's best to keep an open mind when I'm watching movies, because the skeptic inside of me always somehow comes alive and asks stupid questions like, 'Why?' instead of 'Why not?'.
Still... even though I know this is just a movie, with a powdered, plasticly good looking cast about Vampires and Humans and nothing in between, I just can't seem to wrap my head around one MAIN thing:

Bella Swan.

Look at her... with that idiotically awkward expression her face. Remember, Kristen Stewart Stalkers, I am not insulting the actress, but the character... EVERYTHING about the character.
As if it doesn't suck enough that she already has to worry about trying to walk without falling, answering questions without stuttering in her daily life and scrunching her hair when in doubt... they make her choose between Edward and Jacob.
And guess what, she can't do it! Not at first...
So she secretly-obviously dates them both... kissing one in front of the other, so on..so forth.
I mean, you know, until she marries Edward.
Because she loves him more than she loves Jacob.

Is anyone understanding this better than I am?

I get where Stephanie Myer was going, but this by itself is a little too much. Yes, I'm actually daring to say that in a world filled with blood-thirsty, fashionable vampires and 6 packed werewolves who don't own shirts, it is kinda absurd that Bella fucking Swan was allowed to love two rivals at the same time and do whatever she wanted.
And then she married one, but that's not the point.

She's SO AWKWARD. She can't walk without falling and can't talk without thinking for 10 years first whilst making stupid facial expressions, but she's given the deadly task of choosing between a werewolf and a vampire?

If this was real life, Bella would have just died from thinking about it.

Maybe this is why I should have just not watched any of this.

PETA or No?

2010-12-13T15:00:00.000-08:00

I love animals more than I love everything else in this world.
As much as family and friends and more than breathing, eating, living and shopping.
I believe they have as much right to live, if not more than us... and I'd do anything to scream that out to the world.

But let me be completely honest when I say that I am an aspiring vegetarian... and will be one day, and only then will completely accept myself as a true animal lover.
I have a long way to go.

But PETA claims they love animals already, more than I ever will, telling people to stop wearing fur and eating meat.

But I do not understand the point of their advertising campaigns?

But I do understand the point of the picture that follows:

Trust me, I love women's bodies too and I think that some females need to walk around naked, and being clothed is utterly unnecessary, but there's a limit, is there not?

Still, if PETA says they love animals, I believe them.
... believed them blindly, until I stumbled upon the following website, called 'Peta Kills Animal's.

As though my life was not complicated enough worrying about the thousands of animals I see everyday, that I cannot help as much as I'd like to.

Because I do not know who to believe, I shall be back briefly, well-researched and ready to bitch slap someone in the face.

Who Doesn't Love Music?

2010-12-13T03:20:00.000-08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

I Adore Creepy Stuff

2010-12-13T03:02:00.001-08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

2010-12-13T02:55:00.000-08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Muse and MTV Exit

2010-12-12T14:15:00.000-08:00

I like shopping.
(Yes, if some of you'll missed out the fact that I'm a girl between all the ranting and bitching).

Anyway, I like shopping. I like it a lot.
It makes me happy, and not in some stupid superficial 5 step way.
(In case you were wondering, these are the 5 steps: 1. Dress Up 2.Click Picture 3.Delete and Click Another Picture 4.Upload on FB 5.Wait patiently for comments and likes*)

But in a look good for myself kind of way... so, I'm careful when I go shopping.
Because if it goes wrong, then my whole day will be thrown off course.
If I don't look good to me, I can be a very angry person.
And I'm very hard to please.

Anyway, fuck all that.
The main thing is, often when I go shopping I know the places I'd like to visit: H&m, Forever 21 and other cheap stores that no one knows about.
But I rarely ever look at the label or where it's made.
Of course I've seen China and India written mostly but I've never given any thought to it.
I mean honestly, have you?

Why would you, when the dress fits and you look good and feel right in it, yeah?

And then I came across this:

Muse Team Up With MTV Exit
New short film MK Ultra to raise awareness of human trafficking
11:41, Friday, 17 September 2010
MTV EXIT and Muse have teamed up to highlight the plight of millions of people who are trafficked every year and forced into a life of forced labour, prostitution or domestic servitude.

The short film features the Muse track MK Ultra, and was given a special preview screening during the band’s recent Wembley Stadium concerts.

And to view Muse's track, click here

If you've watched it before, and it hasn't affected your life, then you suck.
After I did, I started questioning where all my clothing was from, and started to feel really uneasy at the thought of exploiting young children from third world countries.

But yes, I've promised to not be a little pretentious know-it-all and I have to be honest and say that maybe 2 weeks from now I won't remember this, and I'll be buying clothes with 'Made In India' tags stuck all over them.
But for now, I do care, and I hope for the sake of my own dignity (I hope I'm using the right word here) I hope I do not forget.

Anyway, I hope I've informed whoever's been reading.
I have to go check out whether my favorite stores are exploiting people.

*I love comments and likes as well

Blogger B*tch

2010-12-06T11:51:00.000-08:00

It looks like if you want to get more comments on your blogger, you'd have to be more specific and rant about everything (and I mean everything) that goes on in your life openly...because that's what makes it unique right? The thing's that happen to you, in your life.
I mean I could write a whole bunch of preachy bullshit but no one would give a shit because it's been done before (and I mean SO done before- check out most of the blogs listed on my blog roll).
Then again, I preach bullshit all the time.
(I'm totally losing track of my thoughts right now).

Getting to the point, I came across this girl's blogger, and it's filled with over 1000 followers. I have 5.
I'd like to believe it's not because my life is boring. But perhaps because I'm too vague and people these days don't want to sit around guessing and imagining.
They'd like to have the specifics and if not, then they can get it off somewhere else.

I remember getting in huge amounts of trouble though for being too specific. I specifically said things, under the pretense that it was vague.
Honestly, the only vague thing was not using names.
But people around you know you are talking about them (especially when you blog two seconds after the drama has occurred, giving precise details).
I've gotten into all sorts of drama because of that: Quoted a friend, lost her, gotten into a blog war with another friend (but her blog sucked ass, so I know I won...) (we're not friends anymore though... so did I really win? LOL). Had an anonymous blogger stalk me...
And a couple of other university scams- like badmouthing my pmsy teacher and ranting about two girls who pissed me off with how plastic they were (I want to say plasticity but I'm not sure it's right. Will let google define it later).

ANYWAY, I guess I'm starting to be specific again...
This doesn't look good and I might be attracting some negative attention.
But let's face it, its the 21st century and my blog ratings are too dull.
I got to do what I got to do...

Bring it on world =)

Stupid Yellow Brick Road

2010-12-04T03:16:00.000-08:00

So when I working last week, doing this insanely fun, but terribly scheduled job playing video games all day (and by all day, I mean literally 11 to 12 hours) (for four days consecutively), I met a lovely stranger.

Actually, he was anything but lovely, sort of annoying and and evidently jobless customer, fluttering from game stall to game stall, looking for someone to talk to.
As one by one, my fellow promoters tried to stray away from him, he eventually landed up in my game booth, and I have to commend him for skipping the small talk and jumping right to the specifics.

'So how long do you work here for?
-12 hours a day almost

'You must be getting paid so much'
- Yeah, we're getting paid fine

'Did you know, that today, if you don't want to become a lawyer or a doctor or anything that has a particularly, already-set path, you're pretty much doomed?'
-W-W-Wwwwait a minute there, Sparky! Shutyourface!

(Let's back up here a bit)
I just graduated from university, with a degree in Media and Communications specializing in Print Journalism.
That's pretty much newspaper stuff- hard and soft news.
I'm really not into either.

I love to write.
But I have dreams to become an author one day, write books which makes people cut outside stores to read. I want to click pictures with Jodi Picoult and other famous novelists and have captions such as 'Brilliant Authors Meet for Tea' or some shit like that.

But let's face it, its not easy to be an author. Like it's not easy to be anything unconventional today.
Like being a musician or painter or ...

So here he stands, Mr. Stranger in his shorts and red tee shirt and partially greasy hair, explaining to me he's just been laid off work.
'They didn't want me. I want to work in a gaming industry and software used for it, but it's not a set path, I need to pave my way and therefore it'll either happen or not. Either way I need to try harder than the next person who want's to do something like everybody else- a doctor, engineer or lawyer'.

So I stood there, terrified at the thought of not having a yellow brick road, laid in front of me. It's already been more than three months that I've graduated and I'm just sitting at home thinking about my next move.

He continued to talk about world politics, why he was visiting the country and how it was nothing people said it would be.
And then he bid us farewell.

This is why you should never talk to strangers.

2010-12-04T02:54:00.001-08:00

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Where Is Everyone?

2010-11-10T02:52:00.000-08:00

My blogs deserted.
It's quite sad, really! (And it says a lot about my impending future in writing...)

This would be a great time for lonely, self-loathing 'anonymous' wannabe bloggers ...

Anything at this point!

Into The Wild

2010-10-04T05:17:00.000-07:00

Christopher McCandless, an American itinerant and my favorite hero, said that university and jobs were a 21st century fads. He added that titles and honors are immaterial and they are not something one should aspire to.
Realists would disagree, calling McCandless a dreamer, who was ignorant or in denial of the real world. Whilst they wouldn’t even begin to fathom the motive of his solo venture to Alaska to live a life of solitude with little food and equipment, Christopher’s ways is a life guide to me.

Christopher McCandless wasn’t your average, bored American teenager. No sir, he was not.
His aspirations probably didn’t involve conquering a video game and beating his friends to the high score, or banging countless number of broads.
He did more than well at school, obtaining an average of ‘A’ grades at university as well as leading his team of cross country racers.

He was destined for greatness and he didn’t even know it… All he knew was that he had to get out of society and feed his hunger which was the big Alaskan dream- to be in a place with no money, little supplies and only nature.

Skeptics debated that Christopher’s actions amounted to suicide. Other’s called him foolish for traveling without a map or agenda, as the results would evidently equal to death.
However, others like me felt differently about McCandless.
He wasn’t just another hiker found dead in what was known to him as the ‘Magic Bus’.

He was a normal human being, just like me and you, who felt the need to get away from what he didn’t agree with, and his determination and strong will took him there.
Christopher McCandless died a happy death.
I believe it must have been happy, knowing you have done everything you set out to do in life.

I'm not sure I can ever so what he did, because it requires bravery and absolutely no self doubt.
But here's to him, for becoming everything he ever wanted to be.
And here's to hoping that one day I will too.

For more about Chris McCandless:
http://www.christophermccandless.info/bio.html

If You Are A Child In Africa, Then Chances Are...

2010-08-26T00:21:00.000-07:00

...you do not have drinking water.
...you are suffering from poverty.
...you do not get enough food to eat.
...you are HIV Positive.

No.

...you are a witch!

Yesterday, CNN.com reported that local communities in Africa are gripped by the hysteria that children could be witches.
Whilst adults can be possessed as well, most of these cases occur amongst children from a very young age.

CNN.com reports that 'belief in witchcraft is rooted in centuries of tradition, but it is only in the last ten years that it has become associated with child abuse'.

Honestly, like Africa didn't have enough problems, like 'trying to survive' (for instance), already?

Lucky Inyang, who is a project co ordinator for 'Stepping Stones Nigeria' told CNN that it is the religious leaders who try to capatilize on the ignorance of some parents, so as to make money out of them.

Stepping Stones Nigeria is a non profit that helps those children, who are homeless and live out on the street, in abandon buildings etc.

A fee to deliver a person/child from the 'clasps of witchcract' is anywhere between $300 to $2000.
Ridiculous is an understatement.

Also, if these so called 'religious leaders' decide that these children 'CANNOT' be redeemed they need to be thrown out or killed.

There's an online poll running on CRARN (Child Rights and Rehabiliation Network) which asks:
How should children accused of witchcraft be treated?
1) Beaten 2) Starved 3)Tortured 4) Killed 5)Given Love and Protection

You'll be surprised to know that 100% of the people do not believe in Option number 5. I wonder what goes on in the minds of these people?

'Love and protection?! Pssht! What is that?
These potentially malnourished children are not weak and near the point of death! HECK NO! They're the reason why Africa is poverty stricken in the first place. Not tribal wars, corruption and residual effects of colonialism. Its got to be these 5, 10 and 15 year old's putting spells on us when we are sleeping. Yup, thats EXACTLY what it is'.

The shameful thing is that the African Government says that there are no prosecutions.
I guess those chants and fires, big enough to burn children, must have conveyed something else to the authorities.
It could have been anything right? Like a birthday bash and bonfire, and people singing altered lyrics to Sean Kingstons '911' ("...FIRE burning up the dance floor").

It could be anything, cept' it's not 'anything'...

Africa doesn't need more children dying, on purpose.
To see more of their ignorance, sheer stupidity and lack of reasoning, watch the link below:

http://www.guardian.co.uk/news/video/2007/dec/09/video

I Have An Identity. And It's Not My Religion

2010-08-23T14:51:00.000-07:00

With Miss Universe airing tomorrow morning, I'd imagine every boy and girl waiting in anticipation to see those beautiful ladies strut their stuff and ramble on about world peace.
Why not?
I was anxiously waiting too...

Until I saw the following headline-

Muslim Miss USA: Move mosque from ground zero
(Todayshow.com, viewed on MSN.com)

Nice headline don'tcha think?

Let's forget, for just one second, about the story and Miss USA Rima Fakih being against the plan of building a mosque near ground zero.

Let's focus on the crafty headline 'Muslim Miss USA'.

I don't remember any previous Miss USA's, being named by their religions first.
Was there a Christian Miss USA mentioned in earlier pageants?
Shit, I really don't remember.

We can't deny, that the headline is catchy and attractive, just like it's supposed to be... Just like it was taught to us at Journalism School.
But have we easily forgotten those ethics learnt?

To emphasize on someone's religion, regardless of they've said, just to make a point seem way more attractive is, according to me, holding religious differences at high regard.

I'm sorry, but I think it's okay to say that Miss Rima Fakih, a Muslim-American or American riased Muslim, disagrees with a mosque being built near ground zero.
It has equal value, it's equally interesting.
And whilst we are (unfortunately) giving religion a preference, it doesn't overrule who she is.

To put her religion, before her name as though that is the main form of her identity,seems a little sad to me.
We can all admit that we've come farther than that, than name calling and the religious scandals.

Then again, maybe I'm overreacting.

=/

Daddy, when I grow up I want to be a ...

2010-08-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

Meet Laurence Fishburne: an apparently determined, success thriving an A-list actor, who has acted in several numbers of popular movies such as the science fiction thriller ‘Predators’, ‘The Color Purple’, and ‘The Matrix’ trilogy.

Meet his daughter, Montana Fishburne: Also apparently determined and success thriving, like Daddy, she decided too, that she’d like to become famous one day.

So at the age of 16, she decided she’d like to do porn.

Currently 19 years old and still stupid, Montana said in a press release, that she was too eager to wait to be known and successful and that she’d rather rise to fame, the same way Kim Kardashian did it.
According to the Associated Content website, Montana says,
"I've watched how successful Kim Kardashian became and I think a lot of it was due to the release of her sex tape by Vivid. I'm hoping the same magic will work for me. I'm impatient about getting well-known and having more opportunities and this seemed like a great way to get started on it."

Back to her father, Laurence has also been nominated for an Oscar in his movie role, ‘What’s love got to do with it?’ and an Emmy for, ‘Mrs. Evers Boys’.
He also won a Tony award for his stage performance in ‘Fences’.
Neat-o.
Mr. Fishburne must have dreamed a lot to get where he is today, because deciding to be an actor isn’t a ‘spur of the moment kind’ of thing, it’s something you know from the time you are very young… at least for the really good actors anyway.

What he must have never dreamed about, or rather had a nightmare about, was his daughter, the beautiful Montana Fishburne, so publicly discussing, her…err, sexual awakenings.

According to the New York Post, a renowned American newspaper, Miss Montana said,
‘"It's something I always wanted to do. I have always been comfortable in my body and with my sexuality,” she said.
The very ‘open’ (pun intended) celebrity daughter also said that even though her dad was embarrassed of her, she ‘didn’t have to hide’ who she was.

No, no you don’t have to hide who you are Miss. Montana Fishburne, but do you have to show who you are to the entire world? (Pun intended).

It’s not about being an old-fashioned, broody little hypocrite who is having a bad morning. Neither is it about being a preachy, self-righteous bitch.

It’s just these things that has caused me to write about this:
1) Montana was arrested in March 2009, for prostitution, according to the NY post. She sounds… never mind.
2) Its evident that she mostly wants to be successful (refer to idiotic comment at the beginning of the post), and it’s also evident that she can be whatever she wants to be, but she chooses this route.
3) She’s hurting her father, who worked so hard to bring out the family name
4) She spoke about the first time she lost her virginity so freaking publicly.
5) She’s only 19…she’s got the rest of her life ahead of her.

At the end of the day, while it is solely her decision and she shouldn't have to care about what cynics like myself say, I think that she could at least change her last name, and spare her father some humiliation.

PS- According to Associated Content, Steven Hirsch, Vivid Entertainment (Founder, said that Montana’s performance in the released porno DVD ‘Montana Fishburne: An A-list Daughter Makes Her XXX Debut’, was ‘scorching’.

Nice.

Gaga Over Green

2010-08-21T10:50:00.001-07:00

In life, there are always going to be those set of unanswerable questions that you are constantly battling with, be it with yourself or with others.
For instance – Beauty vs. brains? When is thin, too thin? Friends or lovers? Chocolate chip or strawberry sprinkles?
However, the oldest one in the book is perhaps one we all know too well.
*drum roll*
Money or happiness?

It’s okay for most of us to wonder why both of these undeniable factors can’t co-exist. However, truth is, they rarely do.
Some ‘scientists’* seem to believe that money can buy happiness. Some even go further to say that money is happiness, and happiness is love and therefore, you have one of life’s most bewildering mysteries solved.
But according to some unrecognized believers, that logic is all wrong.
To put money and happiness in the same room is the same as putting a baby antelope and a bunch of cheetahs together. There is the slim possibility otherwise, but mostly, one is going to cancel out the other. In this case, I guess we know which is which.
And if you don’t, then you’re a bigger believer than I am.

Following a conversation I had with a friend the other day, we got into a discussion (which was actually a heated argument, which was just pretending to be a mild discussion) about what we would choose, as we got older- Money or Love?
“Money” he said, nonchalantly, leaving me unsurprised. “Money can buy me happiness and a good life”.
Silly, silly me!
And here I was thinking love could rule over the world.
“I disagree,” I said boldly, although fearing what lay ahead of me. “I’d choose love”
He laughed. I couldn’t tell whether it was a loud, shrill laughter, one that erupted in my ear drums, making me wish I was deaf or a sly, sarcastic, short ha-ha that made me want to be equally deaf, like the first time.
Honestly I couldn’t tell which one it was because we were chatting online.
He continued, “Would you marry a man who was poor or rich?”
I thought for the smallest second, “A man I loved?”

We never finished that argument. It rioted on into the aesthetics- of how money could buy you things, and things can make you happy. And if you didn't have enough money, then you’d be sad and incomplete and oh well, poor.
He also didn't forget to mention that money was the main motive behind all our actions and our existence.
“It's the reason you’re going to college… so that you can get a good job, earn lots of money and whilst supporting yourself, enjoy life”
I don’t know about anyone else, but the thought of that makes me queasy.
Money is the reason behind our existence?
Money is paper with a number on it.
The only reason it has value, is because we deemed it so. That’s why paper money is different from the blank sheet lying right here on my desk, with the same numbers marked on it.
It sounds like a stupid, lazy idea to me. Paper and some numbers and a great minting machine! That's all it took to determine the rest of our lives?

The important question is…why would we give something that can be ripped apart so easily, all of us?
(True, it was a great way to fix the flaws in the barter system but otherwise?)
Isn’t it a banner across everyone’s head? A slogan to everyone’s life?
It's the reason why most of us wake up every morning and one of the major things most of us think of before going to sleep at night.
It should be easily proven with scientific* laws, that money is the engine, and we are the car. And even if you had all the other parts, without it, you’d be pretty much stuck in a garage all your life, or in the middle of the road, waiting for someone with a better engine to help you out.
It's the reason why most of us are who we are today.
Tired, angry, unsatisfied… over exhausted and empty.
Most of us.

The rest of us, try to stay away from paper cuts and pay checks.
It’s lovely to have money, but I’d rather have happiness instead, why thank you!
As long as there’s air within my lungs, I’d like to do things I love to do and not be ruled by the rest of the robot population, who go gaga every time they see green.
Maybe I’m too young and too stupid to understand the importance of money right now, but in that case, I hope I never grow old.
As one of my favorite songs by a great band called ‘Third Eye Blind’ goes,
‘You say I’m a dreamer. But I say you’re a non-believer’.

*- arrogant, self righteous people I am unfortunately friends with
*- unpublished theories by these arrogant, self righteous people

Blockberry

2010-08-03T02:57:00.000-07:00

A social media user, coined the term 'Blockberry'- Gulf News
(LOLOLOLOL)

What is a 'Blockberry'?
It is simply your typical blackberry but... err, blocked?

U.A.E is going to suspend blackberry activities from October 11th onwards, as it poses a risk to national security.

Saudi Arabia has followed suit and India is looking into the same issue.

Oh nooooooooooooooes.
Social suicide.
*splat*

Sorry.

Dear Self

2010-07-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

When I get really lonely, I think hard and remember, that all the friends I lost, I meant to loose.
Had I really wanted them and had they meant something to me, I'd have fought harder to keep them around.

Above The Influence

2010-06-27T21:57:00.000-07:00

Influence is not funny.

You know how people say 'Irony is a funny thing!' or 'Friendship is a funny thing!'? (Okay, maybe not the latter, but I was trying to give two examples, because it always seems appropriate).
Influence is NOT a funny thing.
The web dictionary (OMGSOFREAKINGBORING) defines influence as 'power to affect persons or events especially power based on prestige etc; "used her parents' influence to get the job'.

Today, whilst referring to the youth, 'influence' means mostly one thing: The power to affect an individual's being, causing an individual to do something, having an effect on a person, and so on and so forth.
You catch my drift?

What's today's most common influence?
Alcohol.
(Personal opinion, so dependable source)

Today, thanks to the genius invention of a *drum roll* 'Fake ID, you have more underage kids in a bar, than those who are actually 21.
And then these 'losers' (because of course there is no better term for them) are bored of clubbing, living it up and drinking by the time they hit, (approximately 20) because hey! they've done it all already!
Yaay!
They're so cool and all that shit, but what the hell happened to being young?

There is literally a disappearance of an age group (whilst there are inventions of year groups at the same time, to balance it out)if you come to think about it.
You have kids (0-6), tweens (pre teenager 7-12 AND those who drink (13- the day you die).

There is this minority of young people who do not drink, that today, unlawfully do not have a category to belong to, as teenagers (the term-literally) does not exist.
I am 20, so unfortunately, I'm the 'loser' who does not drink and is almost at legal age.
When I do become 21, will I drink?
No.
Because I believe in being 'above the influence'.

What is being 'Above the Influence' you ask? (Refer previous post, or continue reading!)
Just the opposite of being under it =)
It is a great idea launched, that you can google, or visit the website www.abovetheinfluence.com
It helps the youth deal with pressure and influence and I want to make it clear here that I have derived my ideas from this already existing website, and the title and such is not my own. They belong solely to the creator of above the influence.

Some people, (and if you are a drunkie/boozie/person who likes to drink often/loser in my own definition will think these 'some people' are BORING') don't like to drink.
They don't like the taste, they don't like how it makes them feel, they don't like how they act after a while or they just don't see the fucking point.

I want to represent this minority, I want the youth to know it's okay to not like drinking, to think it sucks and that its uncool.
Moreover, I want them to know that, it's okay to not want to go to parties where you know everyones going to be too high to remember what happened last night.
It's okay to hang and act your age, because it means acting responsibly.

I might get a lot of hate comments regarding this, but, its totally worth it, if I attract as many lovers of this great initiative.

So, who's with me?

Screw You Pressure

2010-06-27T21:19:00.000-07:00

If you are an avid reader of this blog, you'd know that I hate alcohol.
Not to say that I haven't had a crazy time with the dangerous substance, but now, I can maturely admit it was due to peer pressure.
Forward to the present, I'm 20 and an unfortunately very determined and strong minded person, therefore, people and their opinions do not matter anymore, unless of course they are of some true worth.
Friends who matter, do not influence me to do the negative.

The reason why I'm ranting today, is because of these commercials I see on tv: www.abovetheinfluence.com
Visit the above website, and watch the advertisements (of the same title) on youtube.

Please read my next post to understand more.

The Used

2010-06-06T10:45:00.002-07:00

I love the The Used.
I want to marry them.

New Video out BTW:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2hIBgvi9VA

Empty With You - The Used

I Don't Wanna Study

2010-06-06T10:45:00.001-07:00

My boyfriend said that during his exams, when he was younger, he would suddenly gain this crazy interest in the encyclopedia and would skim right through it.

Same with me right now.

I have my finals going on, which after I'm a free bird, in a not-so-free world, and I should be studying so I can get something called a 'decent job' one day, but everything else is so much more interesting!
DAMMIT! -_-

The Breakage of Bonds

2010-05-22T04:09:00.000-07:00

I break bonds too quickly.
Everyone says that. I feel like I've blogged about this a million times before as well.
When someone, who has had a chance to know me forever, and then goes and does something to disappoint me, I get angry. And gosh knows I cannot control my anger.
And then I throw it all away, no matter how close that person was to me.
It's a bad habit, I guess, if you look at it without knowing me. But I don't really believe in breaking those.
It's fair right? To want to be around only those people who know you, and who you know?This makes life much simpler.
You don't want to be hanging out with a person for two years, and then have that situation at the bar, where the bartender asks you what your favorite drink is, and your busy doing something else, like digging through your bag, and you ask that 'person' to order for you, and they're staring at you blankly.
'How do I know what you want?'
'I don't know, douche, you've been with me for the last two years. Take a guess at least?'

It's a small deal to most people, I get it, makes me sound high maintenance (which I seriously am), but its the little things that matter.
Like knowing what your favorite drink is, or what your favorite band+song is, who you hate with your life... and what you love with your life.

You can't always have what you want, I know that too, but unlike most people, I'm willing to risk everyone who comes my way and try to be surrounded by people who know who I am and who I know ... very well.
Maybe I'll be left lonely, cause that can never happen, but I think I'm doing alright right now... better than alright...

What's wrong with dismissing everyone who is fake or who don't know you? There's nothing wrong with breaking bonds then, too quickly.
That's what I think ...

<3

Saying Goodbye to Something that was Kinda 'Home'

2010-05-22T03:56:00.000-07:00

So graduation is somewhere around the corner (not the ceremony, that is years away...well months away...this is just the leaving university bit) and we're loaded with so much of work, assignments, final projects, making up with one another.
It is the most hectic month I have ever had in three years of university, where I'd long for weekends with friends and dread waking up on Sunday morning BUT this was the best month of my life!
I wonder why all of the three years wasn't as much fun as this, even if it meant we were working.
In these past few weeks, I've made some really great friends... and I've had some of the most awesome weekends ever thanks to my boyfriend and my best friend (who doesn't know he's my best friend but he will sooner or later).
I've learnt a lot about time management and cooperation with people you don't necessarily get along with, and if you look closer and just talk to them, they aren't that bad. In fact they are just like you.
And then there are those people who just suffocate you with their attempt at being quirky, when deep down in their heart they know it's failing every time... these are the people you are glad to leave behind.

I am going to miss making friends, and breaking them, and keeping them, and sleeping at coffee spots and talking but not ordering anything, and wondering when the next restaurant is going to open because it seems yummy but in truth you don't have time to walk up to it and buy anything (but it never opened anyway...), and eating the same Indian food and having the same fights and the same confrontations and the same pathological liar in the group, and calling ourselves a group, and throwing surprises during birthdays and clicking tons of memories and saving them in a folder called university-final sem, and laughing and gossiping and bitching, and comparing results and works, and getting annoyed at who did better, and not talking to them for a week, and life as I know it right now...

I am going to miss this all.

The Art of Being Weird

2010-04-02T17:29:00.001-07:00

Hi!

I'm into this 'Art' stuff. So bear with me, while I make overly-critical assumptions and judgements about people around me, that I don't really care about but know enough to bother to write a post (wow, long sentence! phew!) about.
There.

This post is called 'The Art of Being Weird'
Oh yeah, you'll can read. I kinda forgot that... in my excitedness to be typing FINALLY about something I really want to be typing away about.

I like weird people. Let me start off by saying that. They're quirky and different, and say stuff which is just so 'Whoa?! where did that come from??', which makes them so likable, more than anybody else.
They probably dress different too.
They stand out. Automatically.

Keyword: automatically.

Now let's talk about normal people, who want to be weird! They aren't, let's get that straight- for the most part they're talking like everybody else, dressing like everybody else and have the same old boring value system.
But boy! do they try and be different or what??? (What?)

An example could be about how they say stupid stuff, that no one gets... and 'that was the point' they say or they comment on how everybody else (genius) is dumb.
But I REALLY DON'T THINK SO. I think it was a 'FAIL' moment, like 'UUUUUUUUURK' moment. You know when you hit the buzzer in that TV show and your answer is wrong?
You can wear huge spectacles because that is APPARENTLY who you are and speak in a different language altogether, but you aren't different. And I'm sorry. There, I said it.

You know when someone is naturally so out of it, they're plain weird ... and then the people who try so hard, it shows pathetically and you wish it didn't cause you feel bad and embaressed for them =(

You aren't different, love, maybe JUST maybe next time you will be, but not today.
So stop trying so hard.

<3

Ps- I promise this isn't for anybody in particular. Maybe.

When I Was Young ...

2010-04-02T17:27:00.000-07:00

Since the time I was 10, I used to write something in my diary, that I've seemed to have forgotten COMPLETELY (like my diary itself).
I'd like to share that with you'll today:

Be yourself. Believe in yourself. Do what you want to do. Don't give a dam about what anybody else says or thinks about you. It doesn't matter what people say, or what they tell you. Follow your heart.

I want to be 10 again.

What is happiness?

2010-04-02T17:24:00.000-07:00

What is happiness to me?

Happiness to me is doing what I want, keeping my family and friends in mind.
Happiness to me is feeling happy because of my decisions, and my family and friends input into those decisions.

Happiness to me = me+my family+my friends - the compromise bullshit.

Some sort of irony

2010-03-30T14:55:00.001-07:00

I want to blog SO BADLY ...

But I don't know where to start.

Is that called irony of some sort?

<3

Smelling Hypocrisy

2010-03-26T16:17:00.000-07:00

In May, 2009, Wintour was quoted as saying that her magazine and others have a duty to address America’s weight obsession.There's such an epidemic of obesity in the United States, and for some reason, everybody focuses on anorexia," Wintour told Us magazine.

"We need to spend money, time and education on teaching people to eat, exercise and take care of themselves in a healthier way. It [has gotten people] provoked, which is really the point."

[This was in relate to Precious star, Gabourey]
***

If Anna Wintour didn't know, I should probably let her know, that Gabby didn't walk into the spotlight because she wanted to make a fashion statement. She is a brilliant actor and had fame handed to her. She isn't dying to be on the cover of Vogue, as far as I know, either.
Also, Anna Wintour, despite her brilliance in the fashion industry, comes off like such a cock in the above quote, no?
Does she mean to say by displaying air-brushed and thoroughly manipulated pictures of made up people, she will spread a message of looking healthy, to the world? I smell hypocrisy.

Er, not.

You just make more people feel bad about how they look and lure them into being something that isn't even real.

Whilst I respect Wintour's hardwork and creativity, and I don't know much about this matter, what is clear to me however, is the constant tackling on Gabourey's weight issue.
She looks good, acts amazingly without any help... Isn't that the points to focus on, instead of how much she weighs and what she eats and wears?

Blogging - A Way of Life

2010-03-26T14:49:00.000-07:00

Couple of weeks ago, someone asked me, whilst I was signing into my blogger:
'So is this what you do?'
Me: Yes... as opposed to?
'No... I mean this is what you do. Go home and check who's commented on you blog?'
Me: Yeah...err, kinda dude.
'Yeah, like how many comments have you gotten?'
Me: 2
'2? (laughs) That's like...'
Me:...in the past two weeks. And I haven't even blogged regularly. So yeah it's pretty good.
'Err.. yeah'
Me: Yeah.
'Yeah, yeah that is good'.

Call me crazy. Blogging is my way of life. It's good, it's fun. And I've had this for two years now and its never bored me. It's funny to remember the time when blogging was a phase for many.
The new templates, the 'cool' blog titles. And where are they now? The updates tell me, the last posts were years ago.
Fail.

But for me, no sir. Blogging is essential. It's like air, or water or studying (just kidding!)

I remember when I got into a chick fight with two girls in my first year of college, after I bitched about them (without naming them) on my blog, one of them asked me, 'So is this what you do? You hate us and go running home and type it in your blog?'
Err... yeah... THAT IS PRECISELY what I do. Minus the running home. Sometimes, I have places to be before I blog.
But yeah, I hate someone... have a bad incident with them .. and then BOOM! Blog about it!
It's alright to do that, as long as you aren't using names. It's not cowardly AT ALL. (I hated them to their faces too) (Today, one of them is my bestfriend and the other a good friend) (Jeez, life!) (I deleted that post if you are wondering)(Was a TAD bit unfair) (Anyway...)

That's my way of life. And there's no undoing it.

This was kinda pointless I know.But whatever.

<3

New Blogger Look... Come One, Come All!

2010-03-26T14:17:00.000-07:00

So whosoever is following, this is the new look for my blogger.
I'm not sure if it's permanent, but I like it for now. I think the out-of-focus background, really matches the title.

I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but my blog is called 'Sound effects and Overdramatics' because it's a song by one of (my two) favourite band(s) called 'The Used'.

Anyway, I keep thinking of new topics to write about, but then I forget. University is getting more hectic by the day. But I did have time to go for 'Cop Out' this weekend, so that was nice.
And I even got to watch some cool bands play the Ramada gig 'Annihilation'. I have really taken a liking (I was going to type lightening because I'm very tired- my shoulders ache, my ears are ringing) to Gandhi's Cookbook. Definately going to watch out for them ...

<3

Hello Im A Girl [Part 2]

2010-03-09T09:43:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was Women's Day.

What is Women's Day?
It's like any other 'day' dedicated for a special cause, reason, person- like thanksgiving or St. Patrick's Day. Although, you can see that the other stuff is actually people who did some pretty great stuff, or a festival and tradition like Halloween and shizzle!
Why women's day?
To celebrate 'womanhood' (apparently). To keep one special day to remember that women are special, the success behind every man (...), foundations of etc. etc., to make families and houses homes mmm.... You get my drift.
Because women are awesome, and men didn't realize that at one point of time .. and women itself didn't realize their own potential. So when they finally came through, they dedicated this entire day in the year, to remind women that they are special and that they got through some hard times and that it's still a constant struggle ... and equality will come and all that.
It's a decent 'concept' if you look at it from far.

I just have one problem though. The concept of women's day is lost on me. And if you haven't read my blog before, then you must know that I am (...wait for it! ) a... (here's the REAL kicker) WOMAN (well, I'm a girl...I still think 20 is a girl...I have issues)! No really! I am!! No, I'm not lying!!!

Now that I've said that, let me be free to rant against this completely and utterly unnecessary waste of a day.
If women want to feel equal, why do they need a day all to themselves?
If women want to be equal, why are they treated specially? Why all the preference at work places and queues hmm? Why the 'F' is it ladies night (because we're unable to pay for our drinks? Because this a brilliant way to attract women to bars and tacky places... because something is for free?)
Why is there more preference to Mother's Day, than to Father's Day? Are you trying to say that mothers are more emotionally attached to kids, than a father is? Because a lot of father's would want to argue on that.

As a woman (yes, I really am one!) I feel like there is no need to dedicate an entire day trying to convince ourselves that we really are special and that we've come a long way. There is no need to say that we've achieved great obstacles in life. There is no need to have a pep talk, assuring ourselves that yes we are beautiful, yes we do have to follow our dreams... I think most of know that.
Successful women don't need constant reminding. The weak who have become strong, need a day to mark their achievements. I don't think we were weak to begin with. I think we were suppressed and we broke free.

And I don't need a special day, to celebrate with my fellow women, where we talk about how we are conquering the mens world. Ummm, to me, it wasn't a man's world to begin with. It was our world and we didn't know it then ...

I think we need an equality day, or a mens day ... or a how about no women's day?

[This post is not meant to offend any feminists. This is purely my own opinions and comments, and I stand by them 200%.]

Ps- However, I'd like to add, ladies night saves a lot of money.

The Art Of Being Partial

2010-03-05T04:13:00.001-08:00

Partiality is a word of supreme brilliance. It affects a thousand people in a thousand different ways, yet it's not at all hard to do.
You just say or do something, and voila! partiality has struck its course and a thousand people are directly affected.

Take your grades for instance (Yeah, just for instance...)
Remember laughing and joking in that teachers class? Remember not kissing his/her ass AT ALL? Remember not meeting him/her after lectures, and not joking around with him/her and not asking her how he/she was? Remember not trying to be his/her right hand?
And you thought it was all okay, because when it came down to the work, you got it done... just like everybody else had.
But how wrong you were, when your grades came out and you found out that you scored less than most of the other people... and you were like hey! But I put in the same effort! Wtf?

It sucks to be on the wrong end of partiality. When you're the one who the person in concern is partial to, then it works- you are at the top of your game no matter what you do. When your not however, it plain sucks.
And you know what happens when your find out that someone's been impartial to you whilst being partial to others? You get mad and want to seek revenge. LOL. Call me dramatic (Cause I most definitely am) but more than that, I'm being honest.

Why this blog? Because of the pure obviousness of the situation of partiality in life sometimes that no one talks about, EVER!

The End.

I'm going to go now ... <3

Presley on Utopia

2010-02-26T03:22:00.000-08:00

Centuries ago, in 1516, Sir Thomas More wrote a book called 'Of The Best State of a Republic, and of New Island Utopia' describing a fictional island in the Atlantic Ocean , possessing a seemingly perfect environment.
He derived a term called 'Utopia' basically, which means 'an ideal community or society'. Here, there will be a perfect socio-politico-legal system as well as the existence of people in complete harmony with one another and an ideal society.
More did not consider the place idealistic and it would never exist and it could never exist.
Utopia comes from an English homophone 'Eutopia', derived from the Greek 'good' and 'place'.

Whilst sitting at the beach the other day, Presley decided to bring up the topic of Utopia. A word familiar, but still unknown, we asked him to describe to which he did a particularly good job.
Sonya, a theorist in her own way, started to argue about whether Utopia could actually exist, her believing it never could... at least not with humans anyway. But Presley said it easily could... mainly if money was not existent in the world. He believed that money was pretty much the root of all evil, but there were other things for disruption in society as well.
The non existence of money could easily make for a Utopian society.

His theory goes something like this:
In a Utopian society, there will be absolutely no money. The society runs on a barter system.
People do what they are passionate about, and what they love doing and therefore they make the best of their talent and the best goods. So a musician, makes music for a living and an artist paints and so on.
Because we all would rely on the barter system, we'd live on our talent for other people's talents. So for instance, a farmer will farm because he loves farming and he'll provide people with food. In turn, he can listen to music, buy clothes from a tailor etc. all for free because they would precisely be doing the same thing as him.
Because we will all be doing what we love, from the time of birth, there will be no greed, no competition, no NEED to be better than the other. There will be no best doctor, best musician... there will be a lot of musicians, lot of doctors, lots of people who do what they love doing and because we were raised in a Utopian society, free of class and hierarchal structure we will feel no need to compare or be little people for our own good will.

Because we are raised free of these problems, there will be no crime. There will be no emotionally hungry people or crazy people, because they would have no family problems growing up. The basic necessity of a Utopian society, will be love and it will be easy to love one another.

There will be no laws, just basic rules, which a different spokesperson will bring to the society's notice every day/week/month. There will always be discussion, no fights and no one man's need over the other.

Finally, in a Utopian Society, man and woman will be treated equally. Everyone will die doing what they love doing. Maybe people will feel like sinning, but we're not sure about that yet.
God will most definately exist in a Utopian society.

This is pretty much the same theory as More's, except altered here and there. Utopia can't exist here on earth of course, but if a new world was created where the founders of Utopia raised new children in the Utopian way, then I believe it could exist.

I wish it exists.

[Thanks to Presley and Sonya]

2010

2010-01-05T10:46:00.000-08:00

It's already 2010, and I didn't even know until I had to start writing 10 for the date instead of 09 :(

2010 was an awesome year, with so many surprises (most of them good nonetheless). I have so much to be thankful for:
My boyfriend, my bestfriend, the love of my life without whom my life (cliched) would be achingly different! I love you forever and more!

All my friends and my family. Thank you for being there with me through all the shit I've been through, thank you for helping me make some of the best memories of my life.

University. Because of the undying versions of drama I receive one can never be bored. Oh and because of one of the coolest professors on earth, who made university bearable, more fun and livable!

IBDA'A. The single most greatest moment of my life. The day I made everyone close to me so proud, and everyone who dislike me insanely jealous. Truly a day to remember!

I also have to say that there were some things that went really wrong but life's a learning process, we only get wiser as we move along right?

I hope 2010 is half as awesome as 2009. But I'm keeping an open mind and still deciding on em' resolutions :P

<3

Hello Im A Girl

2009-12-06T10:09:00.001-08:00

[This doesn't mean guys aren't like the following examples, it's just that I'm focusing on the larger population]

When I first met my boyfriend, who is a hardcore metal head, I told him that I listen to Opeth. Now, let's be clear about this fact- I have heard one song of this band Opeth and it was honestly too loud for me.
The reason why I told him this however, was because I wanted to impress him by having the same likes as him.
It's quite sad I know, but it worked then ...

Regardless, why did I do that? Why was I not comfortable just telling him who I really was, and the screamo/emo music I listened to? Maybe because I was afraid of what he'd think ... or he'd like me less.

Girls are like that ...99% of them. Maybe not as extreme, though they are a few special cases, but some are minor like me.
Most girls always pretend to be someone else because it makes them look cooler and therefore sound more awesome to new people.

There are a couple of particular subjects which I have seen girls trying to get as acquainted with as possible... and which is just honestly, plain sad.

1) Sports. Face it... unless being a legend is written in your destiny, your 'trash sport talk about every other football league and last night's scores' hold's no relevance and importance to guys.

2) Gaming. Yes, you want people to believe that after a hard day at work, and in between constant bitching sessions with your best friends about the girl next door and the latest trends, you not only have time to game but love it. You like the action involved, the plot, the graphics and game design ... and let's not forget what most games have today- the cuss words which are degrading to women.
GTA guy screwing a whore and then killing her ring a bell? I'm not against it at all, I'm just saying it's not an average girl's cup of tea is all.

3) Other women. Ah yes, the 'I think her ass is so hot' and 'I'm so attracted to other women' talk out-loud. Hmmm... does that make you sound like a cooler girl friend? Or let alone an open minded, 21st century female? Yeah, No ... not really.
It makes you sound like your trying to be okay with it... but at the back of your mind your honestly so sad that your boyfriend agrees with you that the ass of the girl in front of you, in the check out line, is better than yours.

I might sound too narrow minded and pretentious about the fact that girls are like 'this' when I, in fact, am a girl (no really! I am!!) ... but women are confusing... and moreover, they are EFFNG confused!

Bleh.

IBDA'A

2009-11-25T10:56:00.001-08:00

I never realized that winning a prestigious award such as the IBDA'A Award would add so much of immense pressure on me :(

Moreover, I miss my IBDA'A friends insanely and I feel so lost without them. That's how much of an impact these people had on me, after just spending 5 days with them. But it was every second - from the time we woke literally to the time we fell asleep on our awesome queen sized beds.

After this, I'm going to intern with CNN which I'm super excited to do and nervous as hell. It's going to be hard work, but hopefully, after that I'm going to see my future shape up into something ... anything :)

Just got done with a stressful week of college, after I was back. Excited to have the Eid Holidays, off for two weeks.

Happy Eid to you all!

Mwah

2009-11-13T15:12:00.001-08:00

Oh, and I haven't had proper sleep or TV viewing in days.

:(

Everything I Wished For

2009-11-13T15:06:00.000-08:00

I got a call from Ibda'a on Thursday, around 3:20 in the afternoon, where they let me know I was one out of three students who was nominated for an award, in the journalism category.
I was beyond thrilled, had no words and did an awkward jump where I let the entire room (which I was in) know that my dreams had come true!

www.ibdaa-awards.ae

It's exciting and more than that it's an honor just to be nominated, let alone win.

I'm going to try and update you on each day I spend getting closer to the award cermony, whilst interacting with my fellow nominees.

:)

And to all of those who prayed for me, love you and thank you!

The Life She Used To Know

2009-11-02T14:40:00.000-08:00

ello,
My name is Desiree Jennings and I am twenty-five years old. I work full-time as a Marketing Communications Manager for a major Internet company. I am currently working to finish my bachelor’s degree in Finance and Economics this fall and hope to continue on to a Masters in Economics in 2010.
In my spare time, I enjoy running and training for races from 5Ks to marathons. I also lead a local run club, training beginning runners for 5K and 10K races. I am training for the National Marathon in DC in March and recently became a member of the Washington Redskins Cheerleader Ambassador team.
That was the life that I used to know.
On August 23, 2009, I received a seasonal flu vaccine at a local grocery store that drastically, and potentially irreversibly, altered my future. In a matter of a few short weeks I lost the ability to walk, talk normally, and focus on more than one stimuli at a time. Whenever I eat I know, without fail, that my body will soon go into uncontrollable convulsions coupled with periods of blacking out.
Each day is a battle to control the symptoms triggered by the flu vaccine and a reminder that my life will never be the same. I set up this site to tell my story and warn people of the neurological side effects than can result from vaccinations; especially knowing that in the majority of cases, these stories are seldom heard outside of immediate families and friends.
I hope everyone that reads my story will heed my warning and think very carefully, including watching my story, reading the information about vaccine side effects on this website, reading the vaccine package insert, considering the natural remedies for flu and H1N1 on this site, and seeking out consultations with the doctors found on this website, before making the decision to receive a vaccination.
Sincerely,
Desiree Jennings
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/DesireeJennings

-Taken from http://www.totalprosports.com/blog/

Watch her story on:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVQKA_CpQfk

Halloween in University

2009-10-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

Halloween is a sort of tradition at Universities in Dubai, and if you don't have a costume because you've been too busy doing something else/it was too expensive/you plain forgot ... then fret NOT because, it's simple to qualify as the person who came dressed as 'something'.

The following are the steps for how to be accepted in Uni during Halloween:
1) Wear Black
2) Mess up hair
3) Wear red lipstick( for girls), wear black lipstick (boys)[You'll can interchange as well]
4) Wear raccoon make up (for boys and girls... boys more)
5) Paint face white (if you want to be a tad bit different)
6) Add 'horns' accessory (for girls) and lots of hand accessories (for boys)
6) Pose with 'rock fingers' (Okay, I USED TO do this a lot, so just this bit is a little embarrassing) and make angry face

And you are done! 100%'Halloween' Friendly and ready to go!

Oh, you can say you are dressed as an Emo goth, who had sex with a vampire and/or devil!

Happy Halloween You All =)

BSB in Dubai

2009-10-25T12:26:00.001-07:00

As announced by band members Nick Carter, Howie Dorough, Brian Littrell and AJ McLean during the F1 Grand Prix weekend in Singapore, Backstreet Boys will perform their first ever and only Middle East concert at The Palladium in Dubai on December 17th.

Having sold more than 100 million albums worldwide, Backstreet Boys are the best selling boy band of all time. With the new album “This Is Us”, including the phenomenal single “Straight Through My Heart” already on high rotation across Middle East radio stations Backstreet Boys are still picking up new fans. Performing classic hits including “Quit Playing Games With My Heart”, “Everybody (Backstreets Back)”, and “I Want It That Way” the band is sure to pull in a sell out crowd for this concert. A surprise support performance is soon to be announced!

“Their new album is great and here at AEG Live we are excited to finally present the Backstreet Boys live in concert in Dubai – this will be a great event!!” says Thomas Ovesen, Managing Director AEG Live Middle East.

Looking forward to their December 17 show, the Backstreet Boys declare: "Finally we will be playing the Middle East and we can’t wait to meet our fans in Dubai!"

Tickets will go on sale soon – find all the details on www.backstreetboysdubai.com and www.aegliveme.com

For VIP Packages please visit www.backstreetboys.com

New Album ’This Is Us’ is released on October 6th.

-Dubai City Guide

LOL

2009-10-25T12:22:00.000-07:00

Location
Continent : Asia
Country : India (Facts)
State/Region : Karnataka
City : Mangaluru

From my hometown really?

Lol.

Thinking

2009-10-25T12:20:00.001-07:00

Thinking About:

Kings of Leon in Concert
BSB in Concert
The Killers in Concert

Black Combat Boots

University Newsletter Articles

To Tweet or Not To Tweet?

Shame Name 2

2009-10-18T10:39:00.000-07:00

Hey all =)

I now have a new comments scheme, which means that you not only have to go through a word verification test before you send me your comments, but I also have to check to see if they are worth publishing.

I'm sorry I was driven to such extreme measures, but I couldn't stand the nonsensical conversations by low life, invisible losers ... who felt the need to make my blog+my life+me (on the whole) the center of their life.
It was really nice to know that people bothered to come check up on my site, more than once a day ... but after a while, it got tiresome AND creepy.

This is not an outlet to voice your opinions, its an outlet to voice my own- and I know they are important opinions because you'll care to read it everyday (and maybe apply it to your own loser lives so you'll could live half as much as I have already). So you'll can keep reading what I have to say (which I know for sure, you'll will) but it won't be the other way around... not unless you'll have something useful to say from the usual chatter.

I know for most of you beautiful (sure!) anonymous people with innovative names (Shout out to Skynard McFuckin' and Captain Lame ... etc etc), you'll will take this as a sign of victory.
So be it really ... knock yourselves out.

And yes, while most of you'll predictably will reply back telling me what a ummm 'downright, fucked up bitch' I am ...
Remember... I meant to be.
I treat all anonymous losers this way.

Happy reading to all :)
LovE Always!

Ps- I just had to mention, that anonymous really sounds like Gossip Girl!! And I'm a HUGE FAN of the show... so couldn't he (they) bugged me much =D

Shame Name

2009-10-17T04:55:00.000-07:00

I think changing the look of my blog, and it's title ... attracted more lifeless losers.
Yes, they aren't anonymous anymore ... they have make-believe, login names this time- names that are useless (as they don't have specific detail)... pretty much like their brains and comments.

Oh well, there's nothing to be worried about as long as the hits keep on coming.

(Hits due to people like 'these' who travel in groups of four and more, talking gibberish on people's blogs to make themselves seem 'cooler' and um more bored?)

Okay, maybe I'm a little worried now.

Something about being 20

2009-10-15T13:37:00.000-07:00

It's one of those day's where I have fucking tons to blog about.
Also, I'm a little worried my over usage of bad language is going to get me into trouble, because I somehow have a feeling my blogger is going to come up in our web portal class. Sigh.

Regardless, I'm here to give out unnecessary, hopefully brief details about my awesome 20th Birthday =)

Apart from the wide array of gifts showered upon me (which was honestly the best part, but more on that later ... some day... when everyone is VERY bored), I was surprised by a lovely cream-oozing black forest (with grapes, tee hee, they're supposed to be cherries -_-, but I hearted them, I promise!) cake!
Okay so Pres loved it the most, but it was the nicest gesture in the world and it was such yummy cake!
I was sang to (awe!) and then we all clicked two million FB worthy pictures (yaay! life complete now!) which are yet to be uploaded for all of my friends, friends of friends and network to see (You'll wish. It's only my friends ^_^)
Then I had super bf come over, lay down with me as we talked about the day (<3) and then I went to church and prayed =)
My day ended lovely-ly with dinner with the bf, sony and family at my place (and us making so much fun of her!).

Oh most importantly, I was wished at 12 in person by Pres and Sonya TOTALLY forgot to mention that and the fact that they gave me (SUPER AWE) a red and white rose.

It was a brilliant day, and continued into more brilliance, as I got The Killers and Paramore tee's the next day (Concert in AUH, I am now fully prepared!).

Now I'm sad and depressed because my birthday is over ... for a year ... and Presley is soon going to join me in the dumps, because his officially got over today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!! I LOVE YOU FOREVER <3

Okay, now I'm done.
Phew.

Give Thanks

2009-10-15T13:24:00.000-07:00

They say seconds before you die, you see your life flashing before you - Happy moments, sad moments, people you love the most.
So it's only scarier to imagine, what happens, seconds before you 'almost' 'could' die- Does life still flash in front of you? Do you see good things? Do you have a chance to think about everything you want to think about?

Today, a close group of friends of mine got into a serious car accident, where three were injured and the other two got out quite safely.
It was one of those things, where you know you aren't in the wrong... and you know you're driving safely ... but then you can see danger coming and there's nothing else you can say but 'Oh Fuck'.

That's what happened to them.

I don't really want to get into the politics of road rules and breaking of laws here in Dubai, cause I could get into trouble with that, but it wasn't their fault.
The driver saw the car so close in the mirror, in fact, so close that it was the only thing he could see ... and he realized something bad was going to happen.

They don't remember how many times the car overturned, but in 6 seconds they were out of the car and staring at mere rubbish, of what was left of it.

One of them told me, they could see everything happening around them, the second they got hit ... but then they just thought about surviving. They saw the glass shatter, sparks fly and the ground speed past them. But the pain wasn't alive, until they knew they were ...

I thank the Lord that they're okay ... because apparently the car ceases to exist right now.
One of them doesn't even want to talk about it ... they can't imagine what would have happened otherwise, if they weren't wearing their seat belts ...
What the call to their families would have been like?

This post doesn't really have an ending ... it doesn't have a conclusion but somehow it's point blank... or at least I think so.

I just thank God they're alive...

<3

20 Inspires New Things

2009-10-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

I'm not really sure if it's a new age, new blog thing (I highly doubt it!) but I was in the mood to change the layout =)

As you can see it's VERY DIFFERENT... but I think it'll grow on me soon enough. Umm, I am going to add some over the top pictures really soon, but I can't find the right ones, as of now.

Also, I nearly misplaced my sitemeter, but it's in place ^_^ yaay!

Um um um ... I have nothing else to say that's important, because a much more important post is going to go up in a couple of minutes.

Stay tuned

<3

Goodbye The Teenager

2009-10-10T04:46:00.000-07:00

So there are two days to my birthday ...
And I'm very excited.

My birthday is ALWAYS a big deal... ever since I was a kid. I made sure everyone made it a bigger deal than I did, cause it was the only thing I ever looked forward to in a year (and DDRF, but then they threw that away -_-).
Regardless, it's here again, and I can barely contain my excitement :D

But that's not all what I want to blog about. There's this tradition I started, ever since I turned 18 I guess, where I write everything about myself, before I turn a year older.
I write about (at this point, Ritesh just told me Kings of Leon are coming for the Pre-F1 celebrations thingi, and I feel like they need a whole big concert for themselves cause they're awesome. And it's so sad that they're performing next to Beyonce. Ew.Sorry, difference in genre irritates me) who I was the past year, everything I accomplished, everything and everyone I let go ... and highlighting major events that made my life simpler, better, more fun etc.

It's a real awesome tradition, because you get to know how much your life has changed over the past few years, and its your own little yearly diary to keep hold of =)

So here I go, another year older ... I'm a little sad that it's goodbye to teenagehood, and to be 20 is a bigger deal than 21... But I'm SO looking forward to it, thanks to my awesome best friends <3
And boyfriend.

I love you'll.

2009-10-08T13:43:00.001-07:00

Shopping.Is.Stressful.

My City My Metro Indeed

2009-10-04T12:23:00.000-07:00

So when I heard it was 'My City...My Metro', I thought it was a tad bit corny. It's super cliched to add 'My' in front of words and sentences, just to appeal to the citizens.
But seriously, once you travel on that thing, you go like 'IT IS MY METRO!!' At least I went like that! Lame... I know :P But...
It's super neat.

It's clean, fast, SO EFFING convenient... and you can get to Mall of the Emirates in freaking 15 minutes and skip all that Shk. Zayed Road traffic (more hang out time with Shivz :D)!! And if you haven't been on the Metro yet, you should really just walk into the stations at least... feel's like you're in a whole different country altogether...
not that being in the UAE is bad or something, it's just a whole new experience!!

Okay just really wanted to put a date on today <3 Was osm!

[Missed you baby and Sonya :( ]

Friendly Pain Pangs

2009-10-01T15:10:00.000-07:00

I hate that when a friend is hurt, I feel like crying.
Its the suckiest feeling in the world ... although lonely people would perhaps die for that ... I'd trade it. Yes sir!

Its like when they face hard decisions, your holding your breath, hoping they make the right one .. for themselves, even though it doesn't affect your life in anyway.
I guess thats what true friendship is right?
(I literally held my breath when Sonya got her hair cut this summer, cause I'm like omg, this must be SO HARD for her LOL what if something goes wrong... until I realise I'm as freaked out of my mind as she is)

It's this crazy connectivity that you never asked for in the first place, but you get it... like a 'get one free' offer at the supermarket. I know it sounds really insane, but you never know when its happening, cause it is so often ... and its subconscious on most levels.

Yeah, so I hate feeling the same dam feeling ...

But what I hate more? Is not being able to do anything about it or make it any lesser for them. Like you can feel like crying, but you can't half the pain or take a little for yourself so it hurt's a little less for them....

Life's silly...
Go figure!

(Jacky Sonya this one was for you'll bitches <3)

H I T

2009-09-28T13:14:00.000-07:00

Hiii !
I'm back :D

Okay first up! I'm almost part of Student Hub! Totally excited ^_^ It sounds uber cool and sounds like there are a lot of opportunities for events and getting to know new people and all ... so yaay to that :)
Second, Sonya and I are writing the cover story for our Manipal Weekly called Imprint! It's the first Issue so this is HUGE! :D I'm specially going to click a picture of the joint byline <3

Third... Did you check out my awesome new hit counter? :D Its super awesome (thank you Ritesh!).
Aaah :)

Apart from that there's a tonne of work for uni and it's just the second day after the Eid Holidays but I'm worn out already :( and I want those holidays back. I'm really looking forward to the weekend!

Anyway, I have lots to catch up on... So happy reading :)
Oh and I know you ALL will be reading.

Tee Hee XD

PS- Shout out to Shivani!! Welcome Back Muah!

Preventing the Rusting

2009-09-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

Omg, my blogger account is rusting! It's the over involvement in uni stuff and we're out with a Manipal blog and we're coming out with a newspaper too, so that keeps me away from my first love -_-
I need to get some viewers!

Anyway, our Manipal blog is:
www.manipaldubaiblog.com
And you'll should give that a visit, apart from the fact that it might not affect your life in anyway if you're out of the Gulf, but regardless, leave some comments :)

Also, that weekly newspaper that we're coming out with also is starting to take some sort of form (although I'm too handicapped to be part of the design team, I don't do anything but write and criticize) so yeah will update you with pictures of that too!

University has been good, no drama, which is thumbs up all the way, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss it A WHOLE LOTS :P We're a very small class now, since I'm specializing in print journalism...but we do have a common class, with the old people now and again ... which eh! sucks, but we get through it ... besides, the love of my life is in common class which beats everything else! (Yes Presley, I am talking about you... lol )

Okay that's about it.
I wanted to update this thing, no matter how useless the post.
Whoever is reading, lots of love :)

Bigger The Group Smaller Their Pride

2009-08-02T11:58:00.000-07:00

I was a little worried, that my bad temper and (recent) discovery of sheer honesty would land me in trouble and without ANY FRIENDS.
I wondered what it would be like, when all my 'friends' managed to piss the shit out of me (these 'friends' usually do), and I had shoved them out my life forever. Someone once told me 'You'll land up alone!'.
I gave that a thought. Only so much as a genuine thought.

And then today I remembered (with the help of Sonya <3) what Presley (the love of my life) told me, MANY MANY MONTHS ago.
'You don't need to hang with people, that you don't want to hang out with. Who you come home and complain about, who you feel have nothing good to say to you and about you, and about others. You have the most important people close to you, who get you and care for you. So just forget the others...'
And he's right. As always.

You see, some people believe the bigger the group, the more friends you have. And that's why they hang out in groups, honestly, to broadcast their friends even though they probably might not even get along, always. I believe otherwise.
<3 you forever my Presley.
And Sonya too =)

Traditionalism

2009-08-01T16:10:00.000-07:00

You know, it's rather funny the way things turn out. As life goes by, and birthdays keep on coming, you want to grow up and grow older and do 'adult stuff'. Like throw your party in a club, or reek of alcohol when your under age so that you wake up beneath a couch, with some stinky guy (and/or girl) and you have no idea how you got there (I'd never be caught dead doing any of this stuff)... and other stuff that would be 'deemed cool', as one's age increased.
Hmm, not me. I'm quite the traditional in most aspects. Arcade for a date rather than going dancing ... the beach rather than a party after graduation? I don't know, maybe it's because I'm mostly mellow ...

Regardless, going through some FB pictures, I noticed that traditional birthdays, with the best friends, are the most fun after all. Grab a couple of BFF's and sit them in a pizza joint, order away to galore and eat and talk and talk and eat ... It's festive, it's personal ... and there's no pressure.

Ah. I feel like... as you get older, you should do things that younger people do. It's the only way to stay young and face it ... your young only once (mostly).

<3

Using The Code

2009-07-29T12:49:00.000-07:00

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/32200263#32200263

Please do watch the above link.

Definitely Wizards over Vampires

2009-07-27T11:00:00.000-07:00

Ah, so begins the Twilight and Harry Potter debate...
No. It's been going on forever, but just recently stuck my interest. I thought about: Why Twilight will never win my heart, personally, and why Harry Potter can make you gasp, widen your eyes and cover your heart all at the same time (over whelm with emotion)!

The answer to me is simple, I doubt many people feel the same way. Magic is magic: whether it's vampires or wizards, whether its wands or immense strength, whether it's Twilight or Harry Potter. So, if one likes the former, I guess it's a given they'll like the latter. Of course, not if a particular individual prefers wizards to vampires or vice versa. ANYWAY.

The reason why I like HP better, apart from the fact that Kristen Stewart though very sultry looks constipated all the bloody time? Is because IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR VAMPIRES TO FALL IN LOVE AND ACT THE WAY THEY DO (as show in TL). Seriously, SERIOUSLY! And then the fight for the human damsel in distress, while a werewolf fights off a vampire??? EVEN BETTER, and more stupid. No?
Where as in HP, Rowling let's you know there is another world, which humans DO NOT know about, where these magical people exist. So see, there is another world, a possibility... and she explains what happens there, all along not disrupting the ordinary human world.
She clearly distinguishes the worlds apart, which lets us know that whilst it does really happen, it can even be our imagination and something we'll never really know....

Twilight author, better get her game on...
For me, she's just not doing!

Geeky Nerds

2009-07-23T13:21:00.000-07:00

Define the word 'Geek', please?

You'll be surprised that 'Geek' has barely anything to do with the term 'Nerd', which is basically a term often associated with people who are very passionate about intellectual activities.
The two are often mistaken as substitutes for each other, and you'd think TV shows would know the difference, umm, but they don't.

On Sabrina the Teenage Witch today, they went on and on about 'Geeks' who were in the Science Club (or on, I forget!). Basically, they described geeks as those people with 'glasses, high waisted pants and very smart in nature who loved to bury their faces in books,'. Can you believe half an hour of complete nonsense? Don't get me wrong I LOVE the show, but it's completely not true.
Geeks are people with something peculiar about them, something strangely odd. Like a quirk, to collect stamps? I might be wrong but you get me right?
They are two separate things!

They went on for half an hour, about the same freaking thing.
Anyway... in conclusion, they're different. And also, geeks and nerds ARE NOT NECESSARILY dull, bad looking.
So much for the moral lesson at the end, eh?

Stacey Loves To Blog

2009-07-18T17:14:00.000-07:00

You know, I actually thought about what life would be like, had I not started blogging at all?
It would all be so uncomplicated..I wouldn't have all that splendid hate mail lying around. Haha. And people wouldn't mind talking to me, because they wouldn't be fearful about what they say.

But if I didn't blog, I'd be less of me, more of someone else who suppresses their emotions, hence I would be very fake and unhappy.

Weird how, blogging about my life and other people, and how they annoy me and things annoy me, gives me pleasure and self satisfaction.
Well, can't complain that no one likes me though, now, can I?...
And as bitchy and MEAN as it makes me ...
...as the great (Paramore) Hayley Williams said,

'If I'm a bad person, you don't like me... Well, I guess I'll make my own way...
It's a circle, a mean cycle, I can't excite YOU anymore.
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life...'

<3

Rob who?

2009-07-14T15:13:00.000-07:00

What the hell is all the hype about Rob Patterson? (I had to google his name, to see if I was typing it correctly...because I thought it was Pattinson).

Is it because he looks 'sexy' or 'beautiful' (as Paris Hilton said, tsk, ask her to say something unique) or is it because he blew us away with his 'enchanting' role in Twilight? (I literally died in the first 10 minutes of the movie because it was SO BLOODY far fetched and the dialogues were like CRAZY random! Can we not forget Kristen Stewart's effortless acting ability? Honestly, she literally put no effort into it ... from crawling out of bed and not doing her hair to looking 'constipated' in every scene. Applause. )

Taking both into consideration, let me be one of the very few to say that Rob is neither sexy nor incredibly talented ... He's another guy ... just like Zac Efron... who will be forgotten about one day (like Freida Pinto ... Am I spelling her name right?)
The whole 'he's bigger than the beatles' thing? I was like OMG you must be kidding me! Compare some stupid, boy toy to legendary musicians, just because a mob of bored, jobless girls stalked and ganged up on him??? NA'AH!

I feel bad for him ... really .. Because his reputation precedes him. Yup. He probably knows he isn't that good really but the fact that everyone thinks so, has put him under immense pressure. Or he might believe he really is that good, because he believes he's just as good looking as everyone tells him, he is. Oh well.
It just sucks for him, when people decide to take their obsession elsewhere.
That fall's going to be hard and a long, way down. Ouch.

Tween-dom

2009-07-07T14:34:00.000-07:00

What is it with all the new music coming out?
Its just another reminder that we're living in a big, fat tween world!
Either that or the music industry is awfully easy to get into!

Queen Miley Cyrus, Selina Gomez, Demi Lovato (I think :S), Ashley Tisdale, Taylor Swift, Vanessa Hudgens... erm erm erm .. A MILLION MORE maybe?
All of these kids, ranging from ages 15 to 19 have taken over the music industry, confusing little girls everywhere (between the ages of 4-12) as to who they want to be when they grow up. Its a battle between these losers (pardon the language) to be the better role model, when all in all, they're screaming (singing) the same thing: That they love to wear converse with their dresses AND HEY! that might be crazy, but they ARE SO UNIQUE and they don't care what people say!
Gosh, if THEY'RE ALL DOING IT, then isn't it a trend that they're following? Rather than trying to prove they are the rebel (they never really were in the first place?)

I'm hating their music and their dressing sense. It kills originality and clear perspective and moreover, tells girls what to do and what to wear and what to become with their stupid, subliminal messaged lyrics.

EVERYONE'S SO OVER IT!

Rock Your Ugly

2009-06-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

I do not like the Tyra show. I honestly do not like Oprah or Dr. Phil either...but I really dislike Tyra Banks. Maybe it's because her show seems like an appeal to audiences around the world, who have known her only for her modeling ability and nothing else, an appeal that she can do much more than that.
Seems to me that Tyra always tries to convey that 'it's not about looking beautiful on the outside, but on the inside that matters'.
Then why the F does she have a modeling show which proves who is the prettiest and the fairest of them all? A little contradicting don't you think? I mean if we all are winners, and if we all ending up learning so much, then why is it a competition to begin with?

Okay regardless, there is something that I finally found right with her today that I want to share with all of you'll today.

Today her show was called 'Rock Your Ugly'. This was a show about embracing your physical features that you don't really like and that you think is downright ugly. So for example, if you think you're fat, then it's about embracing it, flaunting it in a proud way and loving yourself for who you are.
More than anything, I love the way she said, it's called 'Rocking your Ugly'.

Girls want to look like super models- thinner, prettier, different hair and facial features. But Tyra had made a valid point, 'There's always going to be a finer girl in school, in college, in the club, at work. There's always going to be someone who you think is prettier than you. But there is always going to be someone who that person is intimidated by, because there is someone out there prettier than them. It's a way of life. And that's why we need to learn to love ourselves for who we are and how we look ... cause it doesn't matter how anybody else looks or thinks.'

Have I said I really dislike Tyra? She's so .... BLAH and out there with her emotions.
But I have to hand it to her for today... she really REALLY said something that finally made sense.

<3

Welcome Back Me

2009-06-14T11:09:00.001-07:00

Heylo All, welcome me back?

I was busy study for my finals ... and so I couldn't come online for the past two weeks to blog (but I totally could come and play on YoVille... psht! I betrayed blogspot) but I'm here now.
But YoVille is really cool dude... it's like another life and stuff- except shopping occurs way more often and making cash to pay for that shopping is even more easy..(cept' the 6 hour wait at the factory..) Okay, you won't understand the level of coolness till you play the game. My avatar's name is Kikou and I have no idea what it means or how it got there.

My exams on the other hand went, umm okay .. I could have done worse ... but I studied TOO MUCH so I hope I score fairly well. I wish the same for all my friends too ... <3
So what else has been goinggggg on with me? Not that a lot of people are interested to know anything .. but .. summer is here! YAAY! I'm going to miss uni but the break will do me good ... you know? Plus, when we go back there's going to be too much work to think about posing and photos and beaches... I'm going to hit all of that <----- SO SOON... I can touch it , taste it , FEEL IT ALREADY!

I need to meet friends...fellow blogger Anand is down (heylo :) ) and we're going to meet up pretty soon so I'm looking forward to catching up with him before he leaves. And Sonya's birthday bash is tomorrow, so I need lots of rest before I act like a complete tard and thrash her dinner ... with insane photo sessions and sacasm and leg hopping dancing ... if I do dance... its been ages!

Richie and Hiten will be missed though
I have to go now ... live a little ... sleep a little ... dream a little ...
But I will be back, sooner than I go away now ...
Yours Truly,
Dying Slowly.

College College

2009-05-26T12:26:00.000-07:00

Omg! COLLEGE IS SO ENDING! Can you believe it? I can't! And most importantly, I don't want it to!
Yes yes, we hear LOSERS from Manipal (where I am VERY PROUD to study) say they hate the place and they can't wait to get out of it...but honestly, that's either cause they don't have any friends or they're just trying to be cool.
Either way, I don't want to leave... it's one of the best experiences ever, ever, EVER!

Yes there are downsides, like professors who pms and classes that get cancelled mid day, and your stuck waiting around for the bus...which comes along AFTER FOREVER, but HEY! Everything has its fuck up ... I love college!

Richie, this one is for you :(

The Honest Lie

2009-05-23T13:15:00.000-07:00

So there's this friend of mine, who just got back from somewhere and everytime I make an attempt to chat to her online, she either says shes busy, tired, gotten home late or that we'll talk soon and meet up.
So, annoyed I will be and I chat to her friend and ask him, what could probably be the reason to her 'weird' actions?
And he says, 'idk, maybe shes going through stuff, idk, give her some time'.

Here's a heads up for all those people who occassionally or seldom, go through 'SHIT' in their life..say, 'I'VE GOT STUFF GOING ON, TTYL'.
Does that hurt? It's brief, precise...too abrupt and maybe a tad bit rude, BUT HEY, it works!
It isn't dramatic like, 'Oh, I'll talk to you soon just give me some time...I need some time to clear my head, things aren't looking up right now...' you get it, don't you?

Whatever happened to plain ol' honesty?

And like the other, Maw (a good friend of mine) and I were chatting about a mutual friend of mine (that I'm not on that good terms with for a while now ... but I mean let's see how tomorrow goes), and I go like, 'If this person doesn't want to talk to me anymore, then why doesn't she tell me to my face?' and Maw goes like, 'How does she do that?? How does she say HEY I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE?'
And I'm like, she says it exactly how you just did!

Seriously, isn't it less painful, more direct to just come out and say the dam truth? It's cowardly otherwise.

Lastly, Kwen, one of my childhood/best friends, tells me, 'Be honest to people Stacey, but there's a way of being honest.'
No offence to you Kwenie, BUT WTF DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?

Here's the way it goes in my books, there's one way and only one way of telling the truth - the truth that will bite you in the ass, kick you and sting you forever if it has to, but the impact will always be the same regardless of how you tell it as long as your telling THE ENTIRE TRUTH.

Pfft. Girls :p

FB Frenzy

2009-05-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

So it's a lazy Saturday afternoon and I'm cooped (couped?) up on the bed eating some awesome twix, and stalking people on FB (I don't know why...sigh) and then I realise something.
Why is it that once a gurl starts seeing a guy, automatically her fashion sense changes? ITS TRUE ITS TRUE!
Either she gets more rocker, more slutty, more decent ... there always has to be a more of something or something definately different. Don't you think?

Now now many of you'll might disagree with me saying, it's not true, but you should check out the trend and analyze it ... it's quite fascinating.

Yes, I'm VERY bored.

Tee Hee

2009-05-21T11:22:00.000-07:00

The reason why I'm going to say what I'm going to say, is because I'm shocked, OVER- JOYED and proud ... all at the same time.

I was crowned (well, yes there was a tiara that weighed more than my head WOW =D) Manipal Singstar Queen!!!
I won a psp and the singstar set and a shopping voucher!

I knooowww right???

Thanks to boyfriend and friends and crowd that cheered. Sigh, I'll never forget today!

Brackets

2009-05-20T15:36:00.001-07:00

Good Morning all!
It's around 2:36 am and a thursday ... which means weekend! FINALLY! Okay, that was so dramatic. We had absolutely no classes all week, and if we did, then we didn't attend...I'm not trying to sound cool here, as much as it may seem like it ... It's just that, the sem and the year is coming to an end, so we're spending all the time we've got left together!

The Manipal Farewell, for the third year students (our seniors) turned out to be nothing short of spectacular. Now I'm saying this because we had a 'prom meets dandiya meets potential rock gig', yes, the variety was plenty.
We danced ... or tried to dance rather (thanks to the DJ and the technical problems, which WE always have btw!)continuously...and I know now, it was the company that made me have one of the best days of my life. Yes, days (I was rather reluctant about that ....) but turns out Mahe is the only university, I'm betting, you'll ever find, that can throw a dam good party, early in the morning and without alcohol (well, for the most part). Oh and <3 to Maw!
Well, everything went rather well that day ... But, since I did point one or two bad things about the day, let me just add, the decorations sucked (I mean for 600 dhs/- it REALLY REALLY did)!

Today, in university, at 9:45 am, a couple of many hours away, the same crew from Marbles (refer to older post) are playing another gig (minus the drummer! grrr!)with a new name for themselves, 'NOSLEEPTILLBOTTLE'. It's a 'guitar hero' competition organized by our brilliant juniors and let me add, they have done A FABULOUS job till now ... so I'm very anxious to see what comes next!

Um um um, apart from this, my msn keeps dying ... and a friend of mine is suffering from a ... breaking heart, if I can put it that way. Don't worry you, everything is going to be JUST ALRIGHT =) I can feel it... in my fingers and my toes! <3

Anyway, I'm going to force myself to crash now ... I'm not sleepy (as always! Wow, I used a lot of brackets...) but I'm going to try and have sweet dreams about the competition tomorrow, and hope these guys KICK ASS <3

Its Called Letting Go

2009-05-16T15:36:00.000-07:00

I know a lot of people who read my blogs just to see whats going on with me!
There are times when they don't hear from me, for like weeks, and I admit, it's all me...I get these mood swings often...well anyway ...

I checked out a friends blog today, a very dear friends blog today, just to see how she was and how stuff in her life was going. I'm not sure what to make of it, because annoying it is when you cannot understand what a person is trying to say, no matter how many words they use and no matter how simple the english.
Some of you'll must've figured out who she is by now, but regardless, I want to ask her just one question, and it goes something like this *clears throat*

'The posts which are about me ... Seriously?'

Now you can make of this whatever you feel like, and not respond to it either. But, the question stands and always will stand.
If you have forgotten dear friend, it is not shameful that 'we' let everything go, mind you...its 'you' already let go.

I love you deeply but I do not show it by supporting you through the million phases you go through in your life and sendin you a million text messages...I support you by disagreeing with those phases. You may think I did not understand you even a little bit and just as well...I think your right. But haven't I already said that before and apologized for all my wrong doings? I'm not asking you to forgive me, but I'm asking you to forget it already!

You need to do something that is called 'letting go'.
And you need to realise that if you want something, you can get it. You just need to want it bad enough. You know I did ... but it takes two to frigging tango. You out of all the people in the world know that, since you claim I was the one who was so oblivious to your existence. At least I did it unknowingly...what excuse do you have for shunning me off?

I want to use your name badly, but if your reading this, I'm sure you know it's you. And if I wasn't the one you were talking about in your posts, then I'm sorry for making this so awkward.

I Want Marbles

2009-05-14T11:32:00.000-07:00

When I was growing up, I went through all kinds of phases. When I was around 11, I wanted to be a ballerina, a fashion designer who modelled her own clothes and a break dancer.
Then, course, I wanted to be a teacher when I was younger.
I also went through this phase, that my then best friend Kimberley was the Queen of the World and whatever she said was golden and had to be done. The phase of saying 'Whatever' stuck around for quite a bit. Embaressing as this is, the phase of being a total 'Karama G' lasted for about 9months. Yuck.

But amidst it all, there was this constant thing, that never left, and that was my natural love for rock music. It was always there lingering, and I don't know whether it was because I was always one of the boys when I was young or I just followed everything my elder brother did...to look cool.

Having said that, I listened to tons of different rock genres and only very recently, landed on some that I like. Hardcore/Emo/Screamo and Alternative.
The latter being my favourite, I love Paramore. And the former defines my love for The Used, two great bands you have to give a listen to.

So, something I hope is not a phase, is my love for this genre of music and wanting to be in a rock band, someday.
All of this sudden love, boils down to 'Marbles'. My boyfriend and his bestfriends have been wanting to form a band forever. Due to unfortunate circumstances, their drummer was unable to be with them permenantly. But these three continued...and today they played a small gig, that lasted for about ten minutes (thanks to technical problems!) that consisted of a lot of death metal (technical death metal as they'd like to show off) and screaming and undoubtedly one of the best BEST vocals I've heard in my life.

What is brilliant about this band (even the drummer who played for them!) is that they compliment each other, and they look, well beautiful (if that even remotely makes sense) together. Today hearing them, bunched up all my love for rock music and rocker people, overwhelming me entirely. p

I have a new genre I love today- Technical death metal - Marbles (working title). You should give them a listen sometime =)

I love Summer

2009-05-13T12:59:00.000-07:00

Hello all!

I'm writing at exactly 12:00, it's the 14th of May, time is passing by too quickly and before we all know it, college is going to end, summer is going to fry us all and we're going to be hitting the beach ever so often.

I absolutely love and adore summer! Its like the best season, isn't it?

1) You've got tons of holidays to enjoy it!
2) The holidays prevent you from spending it with anyone you don't want to spend it with
3) Even if you don't like summer, you can be cooked up at home with your a/c, just watching a movie in comfort
4) Theres always an excuse for an ice cream and the beach, or an ice cream on the beach :)
5) Shorter skirts, sleeveless blouses, flip flops and flare dresses. Sigh <3

I could really go on ... but I need to watch One Tree Hill, pardon me.

All Hail The Anonymous

2009-05-08T14:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Anonymous,

I'm writing to you only because I'm bored and I have nothing better to do.
You have been very inspired with my work lately, and I see you commenting everywhere. I appreciate it and thank you very much. In fact, it really encourages me to publish more. Have you ever heard of that saying? Publicity is good, regardless of whether good or bad? Well, I feel that way about you.

Inspite of your efforts to dishearten me by calling me a big, fat slut and 'fat' in general (seriously?), I have risen to this occassion to thank you, for being so inquisitive and obsessed with my life, as to come and comment on my posts. Its because of people like you, that I'm going to die rich AND famous.

Love,
Me.

(Pardon the grammar, I was really un interested)

I Bid You All Farewell

2009-04-20T11:53:00.000-07:00

This is a formal, yet personal good bye to those one or two loyal readers of my blog.
I'm taking a break from all this typing business and venturing out into the real world, to fight with crocodiles.
I had a dream that I should do it.
I won't be attending college either, so tough luck finding me there.
I hope to become Gossip Girl when I return and not just same old, lame bitchy blogger...(I know I'm better than that, but I'm really trying to be modest)

As I cannot blog or message from where I will be heading, do not wait anxiously to see or hear from me...I will most probably be coming home in 13 days, if everything goes as planned.

Blog haters and misfits I love, keep checking my blog however, because no matter where I am, if I do wake up hating you, nothing NOTHING will stop me from blogging about you.

The rest of you'll, take care and I'll see you'll later.

<3

Missers

2009-04-20T11:47:00.001-07:00

I'm going to miss (not in order, but Presley is first):

Presley <3 <3

Shivani

Richie

Sonya

Ritesh

Don't have too much fun without me, please?
=(

Big People Bigger Words

2009-04-20T11:21:00.000-07:00

For the longest time, I've wanted to get into media, print to be exact. That's what I want to do in my life...write for magazines and stuff...not newspapers, but more 'special feature' kind of stuff.
I need to stop saying stuff.
Anyway, about that dream of mine...yeah, most people might say that its achievable, because it's so me. I LOVE to write. Love would really be an understatement!
But I don't agree with people...I feel like one major thing can get in the way of my lifelong aspiration to become a well known writer, and that is my limited vocabulary.

I cannot use big words. And I'd like to learn them and be a better writer someday.

But you know what I don't want to learn?
Too many big words!
Where I'm just addicted to using them in every frigging sentence, when a simple word will do me justice and prove the point just as well.

What is it with big words, that make people feel they are high and mighty and better than everyone else? It's so BLA, really, don't you think?
Is it because I don't get it, when you use big words, so you go like 'OMG! You have no idea what I said!' and have a little ha-ha moment with yourself?
Or is it because you know so many words, that you JUST, just, have to USE THEM!

Either its addiction or just a lame attempt to look better than everyone else, but I don't get it.
Maybe cause my vocab is restricted...but I highly doubt thats it.

10 Things People Places ...

2009-04-14T12:45:00.001-07:00

Ten things/people/days I'd LOVE to go back to:

1) My 16th birthday party. I'd for one like to go back and enjoy it better than I actually had.

2) Prom. I'd like to go back to any of my proms and wear something that was more me...probably something funkier, like who I am now...

3) 6th grade. I'd like to undo saying 'YUCK' to my (then) crush's face and undo publicly humiliating him in front of his friends (I liked him for 6 years). I'm sure he hates me today because of that...

4) To 2006. I wish I could go back to 2006 and just be who I am today- more grounded and bold

5) Kimberley. My bestfriend of forever, when I was young. We did stuff so 'insane' and even though I was her sidekick and it cost me later, I enjoyed every bit of it...
We're on great terms still

6) Sports meets. I used to be SO ATHLETIC...I miss that...and Basketball

7) My ex- boyfriend. I'm too embaressed to name him, even though I have in a previous blog. I wish I could go back and date him again...just so that, I could dump him even worse than I did before. I'd throw in a slap or two too

8) Guitar Class. I wish I had paid more attention and had not gotten bored. Today, I strum the intro of 'Kiss me' over and over again...and that's pretty much all I know...

9) Sr.5/ 10th grade. I'd cut my right arm AND leg off, to be there again, with the same people. It was one of THE MOST happiest times of my life and I will never forget it

10) My Nana's house in Manglore. She passed away in 2007 and if I could be one place again, it would be in her house with her, at around 12:00 in the afternoon, during the rainy season. We'd be sitting in the kitchen and I'd have my cat Judy on my lap and she'd be telling me how skinny I am...and trying to stuff a dosa into my mouth

Sigh.... <3

I Wonder How Many People I Can Slap At Once...

2009-04-09T11:45:00.000-07:00

Seconds ago, a good friend of mine, said to me, 'Hey, can I ask you something? And this isn't personal...but everytime a topic about friendship issues comes up, why are you always invovled?'

And then she names 4 people, who the issues are concerned with, and say's...'Yeah...with these people...'

So, here's the thing...and I'm not too sure about it, but I'm going to try and solve this magnificent mystery...

I'm ASSUMING (and this is JUST an assumption), that people are talking about me, because I've been so mellow for the longest while...from just about the time, I started dating my awesome boyfriend Presley. And since I haven't fucked up with anyone/been invovled in their life/ or even bothered to justify any arguments unless really required to...they have taken the liberty to go ahead and make up problems for me (which is really witty by the way, might I add), just to satisfy the LACK OF DRAMA in their life.

I'm sorry, REALLY REALLY sorry, that I don't care enough to talk about any of you'll...and if I ever did have a problem with you'll, I'm REALLY REALLY sorry I won't be wasting my time explaining it to you'll in detail...Cause, life's short, and you'll aren't worth it ...

Ps- A special thank you to that friend =)

SSSSSSHHHHHHHH

2009-04-07T09:56:00.000-07:00

So this morning, as I was walking past this group of people, in the corridor, one of them, sees me coming, and pops her head back into the huddle and says out loud SSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH SSH SSSSH !!!

Now, since it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out, let me just put it into words?
It basically meant that they were talking about me or something related to me, and when I was passing by, they not only wanted to hush down A TAD LITTLE BIT (by the looks of it!) but they also WANTED me to know that they were whispering and saying mean little 6th grader things!

Now, if anyone of those people are reading this, HEY! I'd like to you to know, I've done ABSOLUTELY nothing to you'll...if you don't like me, that's fine...but, put a sock in it will you?
When I was in High School, even then I didn't have people acting intentionally pretending for it to be UNINTENTIONAL, so really, I'm sparing you the pain of going five years into the future and looking back on this, and wishing you'll killed yourselves because you'll acted so immature (immature really seems to be the hot topic of the month, don't it?)

That whole 'SSSSH?' thing you'll do , you'll should really REALLY take a hint, and apply it to your own lives, and ssh a little.

<3
It'll do you'll good.

Maturity Part 2

2009-04-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

Following the latest controversy, about my 'Maturity' post, I thought I'd just post another one, not justifying it, but supporting it, rather.
People assumed that I had no right to post it up, because I was, in fact, very immature myself.
Perhaps...
But, that's exactly why I said I don't know what 'maturity' exactly is, for immaturity however, I would have many many examples...and so would a lot of other people.

Proving, exactly, that maturity needs to have a kind of measure, a reference level to know what it is, how much of it people possess...
Till then, I guess everyone's going to think EVERYONES immature, right?
And I'm okay with that =), well, people should be.

Dont Stop

2009-04-02T14:52:00.000-07:00

There's this awesome friend of mine, who quit using FB, because something bad relating to it, happened to her.
Something really bad.

But like, can you imagine, that everytime something horrible happened or someone horrible happened, you just stopped doing that thing and living life normally?

Not for me...seriously.
My blogs, for instance, have gotten me into SO MUCH TROUBLE because of its content, that people don't agree with.
But, I don't care.
Now, the fact that people LOVE reading all my posts and forming opinions about it in their head, helps achieve that blog aim- Making people care about what you/I think...
If I ever stopped blogging, honestly, I'd have way too much free time, and a little part of me would die inside =(

So to that friend, just get on FB already, this world is a big BOO HOO, just get over it <3

The Show

2009-03-30T11:15:00.000-07:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Lenka - The Show

I Do Not

2009-03-30T11:08:00.000-07:00

I don't like you.
Why don't you like me?
I don't like you because you don't like me.
Don't like her, because she doesn't like me.
Don't like her, because I don't like her.
Don't like them, because they hate me.
I don't like them, so don't like them.

You know, all of that is JUST fine, really.
But don't make it public.

<3

Maturity

2009-03-26T10:42:00.000-07:00

Today the weather was beautiful!
Following yesterday evenings 'heavy hailstoning', 'hailstones', or 'heavy hailing' (Well, it doesn't happen that often here, so I really don't know how to put it, Sorry!), this morning was pleasently windy, heavily raining and very, very dark.
The weather was BEAUTIFUL! It's the kind that makes you want to stay outdoors, with a huge hoody and great company sipping hot chocolate.
That's exactly what happened today in uni =) (Minus the hot chocolate bit!)

On a different note, I was just thinking bout' blogging about this thing called 'maturity'.
There should be some sort of a way to measure it, some sort of a reference point or a level of maturity, don't you think?
Cause' no one can actually call themself mature...I mean what do they hold it against?

I hate calling other people immature...but then again, I try to be as grounded and level-headed as I can, so that they don't go around calling me that.
I don't know what maturity is exactly, but I know immaturity is that thing people do to try and get to you...where they think what they're doing is totally justifiable and not wrong at all...but at every level it's so childish.
Immaturity has some direct link with childishness, don't you think?
Like putting up an act of some sort, choosing not to talk to someone, or choosing to hrut someone indirectly so that you don't appear as though your in fault but you are ...

This was super blurry, as a post...I know...
But that's immaturity...there's something about it, that screams out 'Look at me, I'm so lame'...yet, you can't ever tell when your being exactly that person.

Oh well, <3

The Picnic

2009-03-22T12:28:00.000-07:00

So we had our picnic in Al Ain, jebel ha feet i think, i can't spell that for shit =(
But it was so much of fun.
Even though at first, I was unsure of the group I was with , cause it really was randomn, it turned out to be really really enjoyable.

We sat around and talked for hours at first, waiting for the Sun to go down a little before we could get to climbing the mountains. The best part of talking was finding out stuff bout people you don't talk everyday to and finding out how compatible you'll are =)

The place where we were, was BEAUTIFUL. Honestly, I've never seen anything like it and in all the picz, we look like we're on some foreign holiday, lol.
The mountains were HUGE and steep... and my adventurous boyfriend and I made it all the way to the near top, where we looked down at everything else and it looked SO little =) It was heavenly!

Normally I'm a planner, who needs to be sure about my next move, but the picnic was awesome cause we let the days events roll out by themself. It was fun as ever and the company was great, and there was no unnecessary interference.

(I'm not going to talk about our zoo trip before we reached the park, BECAUSE, I got sad there, as the animals looked like they were roasting in the heat, and I personally don't approve of zoos.)

<3 Pres, Shivani baby, Sonya and Shravini. Seriously =)

Humility

2009-03-22T12:17:00.000-07:00

There'a a new priest in our Parish at St Mary's Church, and he's super awesome. He's from the States I pressume and perhaps thats why, his sermons are touching and relevant...something people can understand. Moreover, it's not preachy in nature.

Today he spoke about something, that I want to share with all those of you reading this blog.
He said, 'There is something so beautiful and attractive in a human being. There is nothing more pure than that...and that is humility'.
He then added a personal story, to explain its true meaning.
When Father (we call priests father if some of you'll didn't know that) was teaching catechism (religion class) in Baharain, many years ago, there was a boy in his class called Bobbin. He was quiet and a shy guy, but when it came to studies he was loud and fierce, and always got his point straight through.
Bobbin also had other charecteristics- he had thick soda glasses, a unstable eye condition which caused his eyes to scatter all around the place, wore crinkly unironed clothes and wasn't good looking at all. Oh, and he was 'very dark'.
All the other kids, made fun of him and how he looked. They didn't care whether he could hear or not, they just said whatever they thought of him, out loud.
He came from a poor family, where his father was a taxi driver and his mother cleaned airports, and knowing or not knowing this, kids made fun of Bobbin. One day, father heard a girl say out loud to her friend, 'He's such an ugly malu'.

One fine day, father called Bobbin into his room and asked him how he could stand there and listen to the other kids say mean things about him, and not do a thing back. And his answer, shocked and enlightened father.
Bobbin said, ' I AM dark in complexion, wear horrible clothes, come from a very poor family. I look ugly and I don't really compare to any of the other kids here. But I'm blessed, father, truly blessed. Because I can understand and study hard and get high marks, without having to go to tutions, which is great, cause I can't afford it. Maybe this way I'll get to a really good university, through a scholarship and then when I get a good job, take care of my parents and give them an amazing life.'

That, father concluded, is humility.
To be all that you are, in the eyes of God and accept yourself and be grateful.

Ragging

2009-03-21T11:56:00.000-07:00

So, here we are, finishing our second year in college, and you would have thought the ragging would have stopped, but apparently not.
People find the need to demean and playfully hurt those younger than them, or their juniors you could say, in order to feel more in power.
Pathetic.

Now this is a personal opinion, ragging may be a way of college life, but personally, I don't think it's necessary. All that crap they tell you, 'Oh, you'll remember it, and laugh about it later,'... is undoubtedly bullshit. Cause trust me, life is much more HA HA without moments like this.
So ragging might be a personal opinion, but I feel it's just a way of broadcasting whos boss. It's another way of saying, 'Look at me, I can order people around and make them feel little and laugh at them, and they can't do shit. That's how strong I AM!'
But really, without moments like these, I'm sure raggers feel little, ashamed and invisible.

And hey, if putting other people down, is a way for ragger to step up, then that's just a personal opinion I guess.
I just think it's pathetic. Did I say that already?

Best Friend

2009-03-19T15:52:00.000-07:00

"How can it be that the greatest of freinds can go from being each other's everything to absolutely nothing?"

The above quote was a comment made by an annoymous person, on one of my blogs. The blog was about my 5 other best friends, that I knew back in High School, and I can actually say, I don't even know where 2 of them are now...and none of us, together, would be normal.

I hate the word 'Bestfriend'...because it creates too much of pressure, devotion and commitment between two people, to a point, where they both or one of them feels burdened.

But most of all, I hate it because it means promise, and I'm incapable to keep one.

Her Half Truth, Her Full Lie

2009-03-17T10:44:00.000-07:00

They say the half truth is worse than a full lie. I think that's true.
I've come to see and hear that in this past week, which has been nothing short of confusing and shocking.
Normal people with normal lives but just extra ordinary HUGE problems...you don't blame me for sitting on the fence for this one. Well, not really sitting, more like leaning towards one side a little bit more.

And while you want to believe that both sides, have nothing to offer but full honesty, you can't help but feel bewildered by the different version of stories.

Now many of you might know what I'm talking about, and those of you who don't, the moral of the story is just as simple and easy to understand.
There are two sides to every story. And you can't land up on a final conclusion until you've heard both sides.

Corporal Punishment

2009-03-12T14:53:00.000-07:00

When I was in the 11th grade, I had to write an assignment on Corporal Punishment. I failed that assignment horribly, because I misunderstood 'corporal' as 'capital' and wrote about death sentences, instead of parents hitting their children.
Today, I know exactly what corporal punishment is.

The reason for this topic, is because last night, I saw something, that I honestly wished I hadn't seen. My crazy lady neighbour hit her 16 year old son, with her slippers in front of us, because he missed his 11:30pm curfew and came home at 1 am.
He was late, and he should have called- Agreed. BUT, do you beat up the kid, who's a boy and who's old enough to take care of himself, in front of the neighbours?
She didn't just hit him with her slippers, she whacked him and threw her chunk of keys at him as well. If all this wasn't enough, she called him a 'bastard' repeatedly. Even after she shut the door behind her, we could hear her cursing him and still throwing things, presumably at him.

It was sad, shocking and pathetic on her part.

Now, I know this is a controversial topic, because a lot of my friends today told me that they were hit badly as children but they don't see anything wrong with it and neither do they hold any grudges against their parents. Some also see it as necessary and more appropriate that a mother should hit her 16 year old son rather than her 6 year old son.

I personally think it's disgusting, that parents hit their children. When I use the word 'hit' I don't mean a slap on the face once in a while, because I feel that is necessary 'once in a while' and 'once in a while only' to get some order around. Even a hit on the bum, or a knock on the head is understandable. Especially when your child is young, it makes more sense to hit them (once in a while), if they're disobedient.
But to hit an old enough kid, again and again, irrespective of who is around is disgusting. Parents like that should learn to control themselves and more importantly should know their limits. The question of using a belt, cane, stick or anything that is traditionally used to bruise a child, doesn't even arise as being logical because it's just a form of abuse, under the cover-up title of 'Parents punishing their children'.

Corporal punishment is a DAM NO NO NO because there are kids who haven't been hit and have come out better than those that are, so what the 'f' is the point really?
Order, peace, obedience?
No...more like fear instead of actual respect.
When your 16, you should be grounded...hell, you shouldn't be hit once your old enough to understand certain things. Its insulting and demeaning and not at all necessary...because a serious talk to a 16 year old can get you the same benefit as 'f-ing' hitting them.

I apologize to those who have been hit and who understand why they have been hit and like that form of punishment and feel that they have grown up to be better people because of it, incase I offended you'll.
But I know a friend, who when he was 16, pushed his mom back, because she was repeatedly hitting him, because he FAILED an exam. Seriously, because it's not human to fail right?
I salute you, seriously.

And I just want to tell my parents that I thank them for using words instead of weapons...
I love them.

<3

Dubai Mall Aquarium BOOO

2009-03-06T13:56:00.000-08:00

I am not a vegetarian, that's the only and probably the main downfall of the following argument I'm going to make.
Dubai Mall's Aquarium and Underwater Zoo, which you can see completely for just 25 AED, is sad. It's plain sad.

The fish are just swimming around, BORED out of their minds.There are people staring at them, from every floor, just gaping at them aimlessly and awed, however, eliminating the very fact that they are invading the fishes (it's a word) privacy. There are too many fish in there, too little space. The good thing is that there is someone forever maintaining the place, and swimming behind the fish...BUT REALLY? A huge aquarium?

It's beautiful really- the colours, the variety of fish, plenty in number... just breath taking. I did take a look, but I stopped myself. Because that's what a 'human' being with feelings and all would do. I mean, they don't belong in a glass container, swimming all day long. They deserve to be out there in the ocean, with their friends they left behind...
Even though they're given food and taken care of ... why does man possibly want to stare at fish swimming? What ELSE do we want?

I'm saying, imagine being a mannequin (thank you Uzma, for that spelling!) all your life, your fed and taken care of and all that...but that's what you do- you stand and let people watch you all day long, for some kind of pleasure.
I get it ... it's beautiful...even I wanted to stare at it all day long...but then I'm reminded, that if I were them, I'd rather be ugly and have no one look at me...rather than, stare their eyes off at me all day long.